pamper myself more

i just feel like i look like a slob. i don’t spend the money on taking care of my outward appearance, and maybe that seems vain, but i think to some degree, everyone should take care of themselves in that way. pamper as in buying nice lotions, nice facewash, new clothes (instead of every six months! ugh), etcetc.

The massage was fantastic! I could get one every day. And I bought my mom one for her birthday which is today.

today I will get a new hair cut and a massage. I am sure the hair cut will not be anything drastic. Probably not even noticable to others. But I will know. And then I am going to use one of my gift certicates for a massage (that I received months ago for mother’s day) and get that massage that I have needed for a long time.

This weekend’s goal: purchace at least one new pair of sneakers that I can use as work out shoes. And wax/shave/defuzz my legs so I feel less self conscious when I go to the gym to swim.

I finally went and had my hair touched up. 6 months is far too long to go between having my hair done. It looks so much better now, and it’s getting to be closer in lenghth to where I want it to be.

I also splurged and ordered lots of good tisanes for myself. I still can’t bring myself to order the shoes that I like though… just a bit too spendy. Yeah, I’ll spend $80 on tea and tea stuff for the husband and myself, but won’t spend $70 on a new pair of sneakers. I should work on that. I really need the new shoes.

It is good to reward ones’ self, and it’s particulary important as a woman to look after herself on so many levels.

By doing this you feel that you are worth something.

All to often we scarfice ourselves for family, friends, work etc…
I think I done that, now I give myself a little treat.

Yeah… I did… I pampered myself again… got myself another bag.

No I don’t have a bag fetish, but I realised I don’t actually own a proper handbag. So I got a cute little sophisticated leather bag that can be worn as a rucksac or sling….

You know what… I can see me buying another, but I deserve it!

OMG! How sad is this..? But last week I bought myself a leather bag…(shakes head slowly).

For weeks I’ve been passing this tiny little bag shop on my way to lunch…going past never stopping but always noticing it back and forth for nearly 8 weeks. I daren’t go in the shop because I was afraid I’d see something I’d like but couldn’t afford.

Well… things came to ahead when one morning going to work I felt so ashamed of what I was carrying. I finally admitted to myself that this bag had seen better days. I felt ashamed to open it amongst the other commuters. So I tried to order a bag from my friends catalogue…cos gurl ain’t flossing at the moment….only to find that a few days later my friend sends me a message telling me they don’t have the colour I want… I had no choice and I knew it was a sign for me to go in that tiny bag shop…

The 1st bag I pointed at I asked how much, and the guy says something like £80-£85… well I scoffed and laughed because it was out of my price range. But then the guy says to me… “hang on… someone brought back an identical bag, you can have it for £30… I ended up paying £28 and some pence for it….

I love my bag so much…with is velvet interior…. er yes… velvet…and its distressed look, its gorgeous. The thing is I now need other bags… this bag is like my work bag… I need to carry my books and it won’t last 4ever, although I will do my upmost to not wear it out… What Have I Started?

Oh… Yes.. I haven’t done this in ages and boy did I feel good for doing it…

At the weekend I bought me some undies and smell nice… I felt so girlie and I was pleased with myself. Guilty…?Hell No! I truly owed myself this.

Candlelit long soaks in the bath, buying perfume, manicures, pedicures, massages, dettox holidays in Goa (well?!)

I don’t do any of these things and they’re just the tip of my list. It’s time to start feeling like a woman and loving the whole me (its so sexy just thinking about it). I must stop depriving myself of these basic essentials.