Be brave and not let other people take advantage of me

..Though there are not so perfect times and people still take advantage of people.

I now know when and who to help now and I’m not taking any crap from people. I just have to accept that some people think they are the only people that matter and everyone should do their every whim…
oh well…it’s their problem not mine.

so far so good

I never did anyone wrong. I help as long as I could..
But everyone just won’t stop making fun of me.
They say I’m weird, they say I’m mean and I have no heart.
Why? I try my best to understand the people around me.
I never made fun of anyone. I never humiliated anyone.
When someone tries to make fun of another I defend them.
So why? It hurts when you want respect and all people do is mock you. I’m tired..

,,,gotta keep reminding myself of this goal…I’m letting other people walk all over me again…sigh..

...Be brave little one…la la la..lalalalala…

keep this in mind…

...For heaven’s sake can you let me enjoy what’s mine? I’m here too…I have my needs too…I’m your daughter too!!

I’ve never asked for anything from you!!! You know your responsibilities as parents! Why are you passing your responsibilities to me? I’m young!! I should be enjoying life…I should be enjoying the things that I’VE WORKED HARD FOR!!! BUT NO!!! you take what I’ve worked hard for and pass your responsibilities to me. You never heard anything from me. I tried to understand!! Why don’t you do the same for me? You’re the one who should be providing for me! It’s your responsibility not mine. And for once I get something that I want from someone who cares a lot about me and you won’t let me enjoy those things?? HA! HA! Can’t you see how selfish you are? All you think about is yourself. It’s always about you!! And you try to act like responsible parents? Nice try!

Please I beg of you. Open your eyes so you could see what has happened to your child. I know you know that I’m hurting and you don’t know why. But please don’t try to act like everything is going great. Oh please!>.stop kidding yourself…

I just want respect.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve turned into a monster every time I stand up for myself. Some people would be shocked when they see me standing up for myself coz they are so used to me just accepting everything. It’s hard. I wish people won’t judge.

Lol..Doing ok with this goal. My groupmates are helping now. Continue…continue..

next big challenge will be on march. We’ll be visiting our relatives and there’s this one relative who keeps on bullying me. Got to stand up and fight…

Well I finally asked them to help(nicely). They did but not happily. I don’t care. As long as they help coz I’m sick and tired of doing all the work.

This week is will be a real test on this goal. I’ll be meeting my group mates who doesn’t help not even ask to help. I’ve almost done most of the project. I’ve been letting them not do anything. This is our last week and it will really be hard. They have to start doing something. I will not let them depend on me anymore. I’ve done more than half of the output. All they do is go out and have fun. This has got to stop!! I shouldn’t feel guilty if I don’t help them much this week. I’ve been working really hard while they are doing nothing. I’ve done my part!! I’ve also done most of what they should be doing! THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!!! ARRRRRRGHH!!!!