I now know up until my 10 x’s tables, yay. All that is needed now is revision. I want to know atleast up to my 12 x’s tables and then go on to division. Wish me luck. 12 months ago

Oh yeah, the maths exam in June is me re-taking maths because I failed it in high school. I got a D but I’m determined to get a pass grade C this time around.

Hey, if I do pass and my maths improves very well, maybe I could take further studies in it, just an idea. 12 months ago

I’m still practising on the maths program everyday, at least three times a day. I’m improving slowly but surely. I’m up to 2×6 to 5×9 on my multiplication and still on 1+1 to 4+4 on addition. I’ve figured that a lot of people know how to add from 0-10 and then they use that in the bigger sums so I’m starting there and making sure they’re printed in my memory. I’ve a maths exam in June so this will help immensely.

Oh, this morning I was happily making my way through my times tables session when my dad started rhyming the numbers off as soon as they appeared on the screen. He said something like this (I can’t remember exactly, but it was rude and unnecessary);

‘I can say those right away, they’re easy’

Me (momentarily feeling inadequate);

‘Look, I’m working at my own pace and I’m happy with the progress I’m making. If you don’t want to support me and just want to be negative like that then you can go away, I don’t want negative people like you around me.’

It’s safe to say he felt it and said ‘Aw, Sorry’ genuinely but I turned my head away and swished him away with my hand and said ‘No, go away’. Now all I need to be able to do is tell that to the other rude people who make unnecessary comments like that. 12 months ago

I’ve just learnt this morning that when I was little, and in primary school, my mum used to finish my maths homework’s for me. That’s appalling in my eyes. If my mum didn’t have confidence in my maths skills, how would I? How would I ever improve? How would the teacher had known I could barely add one and one?

Now here I am… trying to learn my times tables. I struggle adding numbers and anything that goes beyond that is confusing. Everyday I’ve been doing three sessions of five minutes on a maths program. It does the basics – addition, subtraction, multiplication and so on, and it’s helping. But in truth, I shouldn’t even be here. 12 months ago