spend more time with my children

i love my children with all of my heart.. but i need to sometimes forget about how messy the house is, or what hasnt been done yet today and spend that time playing with my children and making them feel special.

But hey, you can never spend enough time with your children. They grow up so fast!!

Today and all the following days I will not allow work to follow me home or let worries about tomorrow interfere with spending precious time with my children. In other words I will stop and smell the roses and just appreciate the moment.

for moving so far away from my children. They live in Pa, and I live in Ga. It’s been like this since May of ‘05. I can count on one hand how many times I’ve seen my children face-to-face since then. I hate that. I haven’t seen them in person since October of last year.

On Saturday, my oldest daughter (7) got tackled by a neighborhood bully and fractured her ankle. When I called them yesterday afternoon, it took all my strength not to start bawling while she told me what happened. I hate that I could not be there while she cried, I hate that I couldn’t console her and possibly make her feel better. I want so badly just to take her into my arms and hold her and tell her that everything is going to be okay, but I couldn’t.

Sometimes I think that there is something wrong with me since I had to move so far away from my ex-husband in order to cope, as well as start over.

I have 3 beautiful children. 12,5 and 3. Just looking at them today I can not believe how fast they have grown. I need to spend more time with them. House cleaning and laundry can wait my children can’t. I once read a plaque that said “a messy house = happy children”. What’s more important your children or a clean house. The mess will be there later but the hour or 2 that you missed playing with your children will be lost forever.

i want to play, laugh, be silly. i want to forget that the dishes need done, the floors need swept. i want to forget that the checkbook needs balanced and bills need paid. i want to remember that all these things will still be here when they’re not.

I already do spend a good amount of time with my boys, but since I am a working mom I feel guilty. I do need to give them at least a half hour when they get home from school (which I don’t) and I need to turn off the TV around 7pm to get them organized for bed/bath/reading. Sometime do this, sometimes let it slide….need to try …maybe I will get myself to try for one week and then it will go from there.

I’m so upset…
I did not take my kids to see the tree in Manhattan…

It’s down…

I have to take them to see the NYSE exchange lights…

I need to be more diligent…
with this…

I need to spend more time with my kids, less time at work!

Went to the mall instead… Spent the day with James, bought him DS games… very happy. (Silly that a child can be happy with just a DS, but he was the only child that did not have one from the family… My children and I don’t take for granted getting these little luxuries… yep they actually are little luxuries for us… but thank goodness, things are getting better. )

We had a great time, but still, my promise was not only to spend more time with my babies, but to spend quality time doing more things they love… so I still want to take him to New York… and do things with both of them on a regular basis… do something everyweekend instead of just laundry, errands, and going online (though they love PBSKids.com, lol… )

This weekend will be tight… still trip to the City is very inexpensive and will still be fun…