...there’s a better, more appropriate category where this should be, but it’s what suits my mood at the moment. I feel like I’ve been living in a haze and going through the motions in a mechanical manner; not doing what I really want to do, until I moved to Paris 6 months ago, that is. Even now, I’m still just “going through the motions” of daily life, and it’s frustrating. I will be 25 in a month or so and still have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. I’ve completed some college, and am two classes shy of my Associates in Business Administration, but I hate business so don’t see the point in completing it! When I go back to the states in 5 months I’ll work for a summer in a brewery where I worked before coming here, then go work on a farm in California for two months. I’m hoping that I’ll gain said “clarity” from one of two places: the water fast (but we’ll see how long it lasts!) and from living in a completely uncivilized manner in the mountains, in a tent, etc. for a short period of time.

I’m just so confused as to how people my age are already married and have kids and degrees and careers and houses and so on. I can’t imagine a life like that right now! Sounds depressing…

I’m rambling. Maybe I should stop tooling around on here, watch Edward Scissorhands, and go to bed. 6 years ago