Pouring out my soul knowing it would crush your heart, is not what I attempted to do. I take responsibility for what I said, and didn’t say, what I did, and didn’t do. If I say I don’t remember, I mean it. Repression is one of my down falls. I’m working.
%{color:green}When I met you, I was scared. I knew not what it was, that I was feeling deep inside, so I said it wasn’t there. But I have now come to terms with the fact that fear is not a weakness but at times, an incredible strength. Love was never real, until I felt it from you. I never wanted to need someone, not to do things for my benefit, but to actually really need someone there, just because they make it better. Sometimes you want to disappear, maybe for it to be easier for you, maybe for them. And even still you can’t stay away. And yet now I have come to grips with the fact that Yes, I messed up. Yes, I hurt you. And Yes, it kills me deep inside. But what I said before, I meant. I am willing to spend the rest of my life making that up to you. I want you to do what is right for you, professionally and emotionally.
I have never loved a person the way I love you, and I know I never will again. I don’t want to. You are who I think of, dream of, worry about, cry for, miss, desire, and need. I have never truly been in love, until the day I looked deep into your eyes and you allowed them to be windows. Your soul is beautiful and your compassion is endless.
Daniel, I love you more than you will ever know. I am sorry for all the lies, the hurt, the pain, the grief, and for failing you. Not just as a girlfriend, but a best friend. I understand if I never get another chance, but I am trying. I am absolutely, undeniably, head over heels for you, and if I ever get the chance I would love to show you that every day, for the rest of my life….%
“Head Over Feet”
I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I’m a princess
I’m not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
You’ve already won me over in spite of me
And don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn’t help it
It’s all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You’re so much braver than I gave you credit for
That’s not lip service
You’ve already won me over in spite of me
And don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn’t help it
It’s all your fault
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You’re the best listener that I’ve ever met
You’re my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I’ve never felt this healthy before
I’ve never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now
You’ve already won me over in spite of me
And don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn’t help it
It’s all your fault
