stop caring about people who don't care about me, start caring about the ones who do

Not to be negative but it’s true. They are rude to me, they NEVER reply to my messages or my phone calls. the only other person who did (in a long time) was this weird ugly dude named Justin and I don’t know why he was nice, but I guess that’s what it is. it is what it is.

Oh, I almost forgot about Nam too. Yes you, Nam. You are nuts!

Edit: you’re like this mean annoying thing that is rude.

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this is such a huge problem for me, i dont kno how to stop!

this is a time-saver!! I should stop caring about what others think bout me! What should i do to make ppl around me accept me, make them think I’m good!!

people who don’t care about me are not worth worrying !!

Finally got some info on the two major boyfriends of my life (no the earlier guy was not one). The info lead me to finally stop thinking “what if…” Good but gone.

Putting this one hold. I broke up with the latest boyfriend today. Fundamental value difference (how we view life, I don’t see babies in my future etc). Again, I felt nothing but relief. Starting to wonder again if I am totally unfeeling or I just know when things won’t work.

I have been dating the same guy for 3 months now. We have our arguments but I don’t feel like dumping him (which is unusual for me, before one argument was enough for me to leave the relationship. Interesting…

Two weeks ago I agreed to be exclusive with a cutie. Way to get back on that horse huh?
He is a little outspoken (and so am I) so that means we have to rotate the soapbox and talking stick. But so far he has 1) installed my air conditioner because he was worried about me (yes, I was the last person in the tri-state area in Summer 2007 without ac) 2) brought me meds when I was sick in bed 3) listens to my ramblings.
We will see where it goes…

Finally broke of with the spring fling. What did I feel. Sadness? No, I felt relief. I felt like a weight has been lifted. I am looking forward to dating again. Now, I don’t think I am a bad person so relief tells me that he was not the right one for me.

I care too much about others. And they don’t seem to appreciate that. In fact they distance themselves away, even though they look like they are at the edge of things. You get soft, you want to help , but they don’t want that. They don’t ask for it. So i want to stop caring, and maybe they might like that even though there life seems to be in ruins :S.