be my own muse

..with a vengeance. So much to do, so little time. It seems that the only time I’m content this day is when I’m working. I know that sounds very disturbing, but with the kind of complications brewing where relationships are concerned, I’m better off spending time by myself.

I have one more day off, then the roller-coaster begins again on Wednesday. I have so much to do. About time I get my head down and do some work. I know my son is kinda upset with me coz we didn’t get to do much these last few days. No outdoorsy stuff since it’s been raining almost everyday. I feel bad I couldn’t really do stuff with him but I also need to get some actual work done. I need to strike a balance somehow, some kind of system where I can do both, work and play, and not feel quite so torn about it.

I wrote an outline yesterday to be used for my upcoming presentation to the Senior Managers and later on, the Board of Directors. More importantly, this shall be my strategy for the next 6 to 12 months. Lots of work in the near future and I am excited by the prospect of dynamic change waiting to happen.

My inner muse-ness is at her best right now!

This week has been sheer hell! Lack of sleep coupled with crazy demands on my time, I’m about ready to pack and move to Siberia! I’ve been jumpy, irritable and down right snappy. I think I kinda offended someone but dammit, I swear he had it coming!

Yes, this muse is dazed and confused. I blame lack of sleep and this endless need to please everyone. Sigh…

..but he doesn’t know it. So to maintain this pretend secrecy, I shall have to rely on my own inner-Muse-ness and take a shot at greatness.. ;)

^{Note to self of 5 weeks ago: Talk about change.. careful what you wish for..}

is itching for a change. A change of what, I’m not sure. I just feel so restless and utterly bored. I feel like something is about to end, and a new beginning is on the horizon.

..I am capable of inspiring myself. I am able to will myself to do the things I need to do, in order to keep myself moving forward. While at times I feel like I’m in a rut, I know what I’m capable of when I apply myself to the task fully. While books, movies, songs and those around me will continue to inspire me, I will not wait for that elusive lightbulb to appear before I discover my own eureka moment. Indeed, greatness lies beneath the mundane and most ordinary everyday things.