treat myself better

It’s funny really…. how I contradict myself.
I want to treat myself better – I really do! It’s just… at the same time I have all of these… these goals, which are definitly not going to help me treat myself better!
Hm…..

I find that being that I am too damn nice. I end up not treating myself as good as I should most of the time. Time to take out for me! And demand that others accept it because I dont do it often enough

Notice I said NICE!!

When I treat myself, it’s usually to something sweet or chocolaty {yummy}. But I want to “treat” myself by eating what I need to eat… what my body needs. Vegetables, fruits, water… not just junk food. Not that I want to become a health freak but I want to start by “treating” my body to what it desreves for haulling me around.

I quit my job today. It was time to move on. I loved that company, but it was time. :o)

I took my first yoga class today and really enjoyed it. I felt so calm and joyful afterwards. It was wonderful!

I honestly think I’m about done with this one. Every day I try to do something that “feeds my soul.” I even made a list of things that feed my soul: beautiful stones, good smells, reading, having an orderly home, music, tea in lovely tea cups, flowers, the ocean, alone time, the library, traveling to exotic locales, Istanbul, beautiful photos, art museums, watching/feeding the birds, relaxing outdoors, and writing.

I try to do at least one soul feeding activity a day. It’s really quite wonderful, and what’s more it’s really making a difference in my depression.

I did a vision board this weekend which was centered on being nice to myself. Today, a friend asked me to sign up for a conference in Toronto, and I DID! I’m so excited to be going with her—no kids, no hubby, just a girls weekend. I think the conference will be valuable and I think getting away will be wonderful as well.

I have this lip gloss that’s been hanging around in my makeup drawer for, oh, over a year probably. It’s unopened, so it wasn’t spoiled. I bought the stuff on sale, scooped up a lot of it because it was only $5 for lip gloss that had formerly been $20. Unfortunately, it turned out that I hated the stuff, so it’s been languishing in my drawer, a reminder of the $20 I wasted on multiple tubes of nasty lip gloss.

Today I threw it out. Yeah, I know, $20 in the trash. Oh, well. Thank God it’s gone.

For the past 2.5 months I’ve been using these basket-type coffee filters that don’t fit my cone style coffee pot. Someone gave them to me, and when I ran out of the cone style ones I used these out of desperation. I hate them; I have kind of push them in and work them around to put the coffee grounds into it. It’s annoying.

Last week I bought some cone-shaped (unbleached) filters from Whole Foods, and I’ve anxiously been awaiting the day when I’m FINALLY DONE with the old basket filters. Last night, in the spirit of being nice to myself, I decided it wasn’t worth the trouble of waiting until the old ones were gone. I mean, why do I make myself suffer these kinds of things? Sure, they’re small. Probably insignificant to most people, but I notice them very much.