find a guy

Joey and I broke up yesterday. Surprisingly, im perfectly fine. I mean sure, I’ll miss him, but It’s better this way. I hated his criticizing. When I came back from Turks and Caicos and told him that I took advantage of the all inclusive food there he told me he could tell, and when my friend called asking if i could go to sonic with them to get a rootbeer float, he asked me if i wanted one, to which i said no, and he said “good, you dont need one.” sure he was Joking, or at least i know thats how he jokes, but still, that one hurt. he always criticized my closes too.

But so he told me he had been doing some thinking and i told him i had been too and he told me to go first and i told him that it just didnt feel like it used to, that i liked him, it just felt different, and that i didn’t respect his criticism, to which he responds that i should know him well enough to know he’s joking and not to take it to heart. Obviously he doesn’t know ME well enough to know i did. so then he said that none of that was what he had been thinking,but that since it was in the air, we best talk about it. so in the end we agreed to just be friends and still talk and hang out and such. Im hoping he wont be like all my exs and just stop talking to me. that’s so inmature when they do that.

Oh! and when i told me friends that we broke up, they cheered and danced. That’s how bad he was. His band members were mad at him too. I thought that they had just lost a fan that they like better than they ever like him. HA!

Joey came over last night after band practice and we watched 300 in my den. My parents were asleep, but knew he was coming, so were cool with it. When he got her, he was all into his text messaging for the first half and wouldn’t really say anything. He acted like he didn’t want to be there. Instead of sitting on the couch, he sat on the bar stools, which can get very uncomfortable. I asked him hundreds of times last night if something was wrong and such, but he always answered in ways to make me question myself. It was so confusing. Then this morning, he texted me telling me that he had doings about us and whether I want this to work or not. He’s convinced that because I have guy friends that are like brothers to me, that he is being cheated on. I’ve told him that I can’t think of anyone else but him, and I have never cheated before and never would. I really like him. Oh! He’s coming over now! I’ll finish this later! Bye for now!

I’ve had many boyfriends, but only 3 really stick out. But my mom liked all of them. Well she’s not too fond of the one I have now. I’ll be bringing him up quite some bit, so I’ll just call him Joey. Well he’s in a band that consists of many of my friends and he is really into music. In fact our relationship is going to be ending in august because he’s going to college. But right now we’re just enjoying each other’s company. Anyway, I consider myself some what a southern belle. He’s a city boy who hates the south, even though this is where he was born and raised. I don’t understand it. Anyway he likes to insult me frequently, in a joking matter, but mom doesn’t see it that way. She has gotten better recently, but I’m still not sure If she approves. And that tears me up because her opinion means alot to me. But I not giving up yet.

Truthfully, I just want someone I can kiss and hug once in a while and don’t have to bother with most of the time, basically someone to play with. Having a boyfriend seems bothersome. Some say I’m young and will meet someone, but I know myself well enough that I will never fall for someone.

All my life, I’ve been hearbroken and crushed by guys. All I want is someone who’ll patch up the hole in my heart, and stay there.

i want a guy that wants to be with me, i know this may sound a little cliche but i want a guy that will love me even if i turn up on his doorstep in the rain with me hair bad, mascara running and clothes a mess! that sounds so stupid when i read it back but thats what i reacon real love is!

I wanna find a guy who is like me. But better then me. Somone who is easy going. Funloving. Awkward.. yea awkward. Somone who is like the guy on garden state, only one who is straightedge, annnnd cuter.