Practice real self-discipline: do what I need to do, so I can do/get what I want

Can I?! Can I?!

I have been offered an unpaid Associate Producer position on a film that a real production house needs to get done ASAP. This is what I wanted.

I got called by an MTV production crew to help them film a reality show segment here; that was 2 days work. That was what I wanted: a job with no effort put in to get it!

I got a part-time temporary job. I wanted that.

I interviewed for another part-time job; the feeling is positive about that. We’ll see if I get it.

I have an extremely disciplined man in my life who is even harder on me than I am—maybe I’ll find him useful, if I don’t let myself get discouraged or confused by him. Yes, he is a handful and a half. But having someone challenging and responsive in my life is what I wanted. And when we had our first big breach, I asked my angels (yeah, I know, I know, new agey stuff that I do believe in) to only bring him back if he serves my purposes. So I can only have faith about that; but I do want him and he might help the self-discipline.

There is more that I want, and more I need to do, there always is. The to-do list is never-ending. No need to post it here…

And this goal is a overlap, or even redundancy, with this one I’m closing now.

Today I start off by going to the bookstore to buy The Filmmaker’s Handbook so I can call someone who’s going to assign me homework and I’m going to read it.

I have some tools to download from the Telefilm website so I can review my homework from a production budget workshop I took on Saturday.

I will write/call Mark about the production work he wants done in February when he comes to town. Perhaps I can do that for him for experience, maybe some money.

I have a few more websites to read and take notes; this week I’m going to follow up on the call I made last week to Isuma so I can send in my questions and then meet with them.

On Wednesday I have my meeting with my career counsellor.

I have an interview for an internship at a documentary company on Thursday.

Also on Thursday I have to meet the deadline for another job application.

I have also heard of a self-employment benefit that will extend my EI benefits and get me some training. I may look into that.

Friday is my birthday, so I might take the day off and play – but not if I’m on a roll, because I really enjoy working when I’ve got momentum going.

Continue on the wave I got on last week.

Today I may have an insurance guy look at my car again. I have to call Victoria and Susan today. I have to look at my GTD list and cut, reorganize, and just DO. Major on the list is start preparing for the production jobs – I’m going to the companies about a Producer’s Assistant job.

I also have to make fudge for Eric since it was his birthday and I haven’t seen him since New Year’s. We meet tonight at Hillbilly Night. We will talk and listen to music.

I have dinner beforehand with Jason and family, from 7 pm until 8:30-8:45 so I get to the Hillbilly Night at 9. Picking up a book from him called Games People Play that I’ve wanted to read for forever.

Tomorrow I have my appt. at YES for career counselling and I have to bring notes and I have to go to another lunch meeting with someone at the NFB – and because of a meeting I had last week (did not do my Friday Follow-through, I should do a brief one anyway to get focused for this week) I have some more questions/ideas that could be useful.

Tuesday I hear from the garage about the estimation for the car, and at 5 pm I have a post-production group/training event to go to where I can do some networking. I have the evening open after that AFAIK, so I can either chill at home or go out on a date. I think a date is in order. But not if I’m tired, I really learned from last time, never ever go on a date if you’re feeling a little tired or run-down, and definitely don’t accept a date from someone claiming the same.

Wednesday through Friday have yet to be scheduled for work tasks; Tuesday or Wednesday I hear whether or not I got the job I interviewed for last week. Also, I’ll be mailing out any eBay things that sold. And spending my eBay money on a musical saw.

Wednesday I have a rattie adoption in the evening. After that, I have TV night at my friends’, we’re now addicted to Heroes.

Thursday night: concert to go to.

http://www.joesgoals.com

You add in your goals, indicate if they’re a positive or negative goal, and there you go.

I’ve decided that if I do my morning pages right when I wake up, before leaving bed, then that warrants a double-check.

The holidays are over and the year is starting to get into gear for a lot of people. Last week was the first real week for most regular folks, but I was under a rock and needed a lot of soul food. Now I’m feeling better so I have to honour myself with some career work.

Monday morning:

I am questioning my chosen field again because of the very negative experience I had with that director guy; however I guess I need to also do more research and get in somewhere with NORMAL people.

The money situation needs dealing with urgently, so I have two things – the florist and office temping – that I can approach now.

So that’s the week of work for me: research and networking; approaching florists for Valentine’s Day and also office temp agencies for anytime.

I also need to get a car estimation at the garage for that accident, and while on the Plateau, put my CV and headshot in to Elite for more extra work.

Cannot delay further on the rescue: distribute the ad posters, talk with venue people regarding our benefit concert, and give Dan any support he needs. Also, discuss with Marlene and Jeremy the boys’ adoptions.

Social project (aside from responding to delinquent e-mails): work with a friend on creating a personals profile so I can start internet dating. I dislike things about this, but I also feel that I can’t get out of the game at this point, it does mesh nicely with the goal of making more friends and it will continue to teach and hone my Alpha female skills.

to take care of myself and do only what I want to do. I have to stop everything that makes me feel bad in the least way and turn to something that actively makes me feel better.

So long as it’s not windy or raining, I will go for a run on the mountain tomorrow morning with my dog.

I will call my bank account manager and see about setting up a margin type of investment account so I can make some passive income.

I’ll knit and read and meditate. I’ll watch TV. I’ll get out of town on Thursday or Friday. I’ll make fudge for my friend’s birthday.

It’ll be like a continuation of Christmas week, with a different kind of sadness, hopefully being ameliorated.

Maybe I’ll apply for a stupid little low-pay no-brainer job in a social context so that I can get out and do something. But that sounds like pressure so I probably won’t. So I’ll meditate on some work falling into my lap through a connection so that I don’t have to take even a little bit of risk or expend any energy on the finding, and the discouragement of not finding when outlaying the effort.

I originally posted a list at write down all my projects and schedule or weed them out
but I decided to move it here.

The number in brackets corresponds to my New Year’s Resolutions

Weekend projects

• Jan 27 or Feb 3 party at my house
• touching up the paint everywhere in the house prior to the party
• rewriting script of the play (4 – marketing, skills)
• making hammocks (2 – financial needs)
• learning music again, first instrument the saw – country band, concert in April if all goes well (5)
• winter sports 2 x /month (at least) (1)
• linen pants convert to skirt
• build speakers in April Easter weekend at parents’

Ongoing present – workday

• start hitting up the production companies for work
• finish the Calendar for people in the rescue community (goodwill and thanks; 2)
• Mads Mikkelsen website (7, Europe via networking)
• rodent rescue maintenance (2): Remember to copy from CRA to ARC as soon as available rats get posted and find homes for 5 animals a month
• music practice (5)
• backup singing as engaged (5)
• voice-over class if offered; voice demo for speech (4)
• keeping the guest room occupied for more money

Weeknight projects

• knitting a toque
• Scandinavian film blog (7, Europe via research/networking)
• benefit concerts – finite, January and February (2 – financial needs)
• yoga/jogging (7 exercise)
• figure out a Plan B (4, 7)
• roller derby 1 x /wk, 2 times when needed (7 exercise, 8)
• potential internet dating (7 dating, 8)

Future – not ready to start

• meditation – Zen class starts up again in February (7)
• musical theatre course in March (5)
• rodent rescue non-profit – due in May (2)
• social dance – going out, taking a dance class or belly dance idea (from Sharon at party) (7)
• making plans for Europe (7)
• jot down ideas of script for farm (4 future work)

1) I need to get a tide-me-over part-time job, and I suspect it has to be out of the ordinary
2) I need to concentrate on my career, make inroads now and plant seeds for later development
3) I need to make sure my money is healthy
4) I need to make sure my body stays healthy
5) I need to keep my peace of mind and spirits UP because I am a very cool girl and I’m brilliant and great at things I do, just a little too dreamy and talkative sometimes
6) I need to have fun and try new things

A) I want to have an easy (ier) time of it, with the puzzle pieces falling into place for work
B) I want to meet someone who’ll like me just as I am and who I like just as much and know it and relax rather than be plagued with doubts
C) I want to make just as much money as I did before, and more
D) I want to speak authentically and be respected, remembered, loved according to my purpose
E) I want people to enjoy the time I spend with them, the music and films I’ll play for them, and feel recharged
F) I want to make a few positive marks on the world – and this is probably the one I excel at right now