be a great person

- I tried to call my friend B. when I got back from holidays but he didn’t answer. I was kind of upset by that so I decided I would wait until he was done with his finals.
A common friend told me he hadn’t done great so he might have to stay in third-year. So, tomorrow, I’ll put my pride aside and call him. I just hope he’s fine and need to comfort him (not be a childish girl who pouts)!

- I tried everything for my sister’s stay in Paris. I don’t think she really noticed the effort I made; and I’m mad at her for that. This week didn’t make us go closer. I might have been stupid for believing it would …
Tonight, I was told she didn’t trust me enough to tell me about something that bothered her. I feel like a bad sister :(

- And I had a drink with a young girl who’s trying to get into med school. I hope my advices were useful to her :)

- About my previous entry: I met my friend at a bar and offered to meet the next day. So I brought up the subject: what happened? why do you feel rejected …? We got to talk about it a bit and I tried to understand. One thing is said is that he didn’t think I could help with that. See, his problem is “work” related so … Anyway, I let him know about how I felt and tried to show him I was there; even if it was just to talk.

- My sister is going to spend a week with me in my apartment in Paris. I hope we’ll get to know each other better, enjoy the rest of our summer and won’t get into too many fights.
I plan on taking her to the movies (in English, of course), having lunch in the park, behaving like a tourist, going for a shopping day …

- I don’t know if this makes me a bad person; it sure isn’t good. I can’t get along with my grand mother. Everyone in the family thinks she is a pain in the ass and incredibly selfish. But they are saying she’s old and there’s nothing we can do about it anymore. But I just can’t stand her! I can not possibly have a conversation with her because then, it would be a monologue! She claims it’s for us to learn about each other but she does not know anything about me. She just likes to brag about my (good) scolar results to everyone she knows (even if she is aware it embarasses me).
It is currently 8:45 am here and here she comes saying “hello” with her “honey-like” voice. She asked about my night so I tried to answer politely but just could not hold it anymore. “But I’m nice to you”, she says. “I know, but I just can’t be like that in the morning. I can’t be all nice and sweet”. “Oh, don’t worry, you haven’t been nice to me.” “Fine, then”.
Nice conversation, huh? At least, I screwed things up with her on my last day, after my parents left. I think this is the beginning of the “cold war” between us. So, yes, I am a terrible person but there is no reason I should let her be as selfish with me as she is with everyone. I won’t let her. Even if she is old, even if she is my grand mother, I just can’t. I’ve been making an effort for 19 years now (I was told I already hated her when I was 4) but I can’t anymore.
If it means not coming back here for the holidays, then so be it. If it means pissing off my dad, then so be it. If it means disappointing my aunt, then so be it.
I may be the mean one in the family, but they should have known better; if they had taken the time to know me, they would have known.

Last year, I met a guy who quickly became a friend. I have really been counting on him during these past months. But I’ve always felt bad about the fact that, if anything happened to him, I know he would not come to me.

I was told by someone from his class that he had been feeling down lately. So I tried to get in touch with him to talk about it. Thing is: he left for the holidays.

I have to know what’s going on with him. I have to prove him I want to be here for me; if not for this problem, for the next one!

I’m giving math lessons to a senior from my high school. For free.

A 5th year student is sick and “my” intern is taking care of him.

I went to see him every morning this week because I wanted to know how he was doing (and because he’s been so nice to me before).

I just hope he’ll get better soon. I’ve been pretty worried during his echo :s

Last week, I visited a flat and told the owner I would keep her posted (if I wanted to buy it).
I texted hier yesterday and was very polite. So polite that she answered saying she was “touched” by my kindness :)

And today, I surprised my cousin because I went to see her (and her baby girl) at the hospital.

Yesterday, I had dinner with a friend from high school and her family. It went great :)

Her young brother gave me a nice bracelet because I helped him graduate from high school.
And her parents said goodbye and added they were pleased to see me.

I don’t know if this makes me a great person but it felt good to realize how they see me: a nice polite girl, who works hard to get what she wants and still has time to help others.

:)

I really liked my english teacher and he wrote all of his students an email saying he would be playing this week.
So: I went.

I just wanted to support him the way he supported us all semester long. He really was happy to see my friend and I came to see him.

Today, I answered most questions the “teacher” was asking. I don’t know if the other girls did not know the answers or didn’t want to speak up but I did.

We’re supposed to stay until 1 but she said we could leave. I wanted to get news on a patient I had seen earlier. So I stayed =)

I went back to my high school to talk to seniors about med school.
I don’t know if this made me a great person for a day but I believe each little thing matters :)