How I did it: he was always trying to be nice to me. Calling me "Kitty Cat" or "Kitty". Always singling me out in a group to ask how I was doing, or he would always look at me, or watch me walk by. He even liked to text me somtimes. My friends told me that he would always smile or laugh when I walked by, or that they where always catching him sending glances at me. I almost fell for it. but I didn't want to like him, I wasn't ready to love some one. i tried everything that I could. I would write about it on this web sight, write about it in my journal, talk to my friends, pray. Nothing helped.
I couldn't get over him, I could never stop stairing at the back of his head, looking at his pitchure on my phone. I couldn't help but to always talk about him to my friends. It seemed impossible.
But than, one day, my so called friend, decided to play a game when she found out that I liked him. She happened to be his sister, and she was always telling him things that i told her not to tell him, and always asking him qestions about me, which would get him really mad. I would tell her to stop but she never would. she thought that it was funny to watch me get mad.
She always talked about me to him, and him to me. Getting me to like him more and more, not letting me forget him. than, when I was sure I could never like him more, she went and hooked him up with another girl.
She told me three days after they got together. She told me that she didn't mean it, and she didn't tell me because she didn't want to hurt me.
I cried so hard that night, I could barley breath. All I could do was lay on my floor,
shoving my blanket in my mouth to muffle my screaming. I don't think that i had ever cried so much tears in my life. My heart had been torn from my chest, and I was crushed.
The next day though, I woke up, feeling, refreshed. The pain was still there, but I now had a true reason to get over him. He had found some one, some one besides me, and I could now look to moving on.
It took a while, and a lot of heart break and tears, but I am here now, telling my story. I don't like him any more, infact, if he where to even dump his girlfriend and ask me out, I would say no.
It is sooooo hard, but when it is done, you will never feel so better. Its like a giant weight being lifted off of you, and your set free. I feel as light as a feather now, and I even giving out real smiles. Read how I did it… 4 years ago
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