Recognize and Accept my Energetic Limitations -

This is proving to be a difficult assessment, and it has involved an overhauling of my career expectations.

My academic energy: Right now, I can’t see anything beyond getting my BS. When I went back to college, I didn’t foresee myself hitting an energetic wall, but that is exactly what has happened. As it turns out, I think I can only exist for so long in ‘the theoretical sphere’ before going a little crazy. I’m finding my ‘ceiling,’ in the academic sense.

I miss work. I think that, by diverting all my efforts into academia, and away from the workforce, I’ve choked off my enjoyment of just coming home after work, tired, and chilling out. I think there’s a genetic element involved here…

Hmm. The battle continues…

- and not feel like a failure because they exist.