grow closer to God

I’ve been trying to do things my own way for too long. I’ve learned that going about life in this way is the best way to make a mess of things and really won’t make me happy. I’m really ready to commit now. I’ve done it my way. It’s time to do it God’s way.

So I got baptised this summer and that is the first step. Now i have to work on myself and make sure i really do all the things i am suppose to. Its not going to be easy especially with school and all. But i am determined. I am also determined to make friends at the meetings and be socialble. So…i hope people will be accepting of me. I hope I will have God’s blessings.

I feel as if I sometimes don’t listen and try too often to go about things in my own way instead of God’s way. Tomorrow morning I will wake up and read the bible. After that I will meditate. So much hasn’t gone my way that I no longer want to go on like this.

But I really learnt alot at the Youth Camp we had this past week. It made me realise just how self-centered and angry I have become. Yeah my life sucks, and the world is a horrid place but I need to rise above all that. It’s all about choice. I want to be different for God. My faith has been hectically tested this week, so much so that I feel near the edge, yet at the same time I know He’s right there to catch me if I fall =) It’s just scary that the minute I decide to change, that very same day I come home to find that the one thing that gets me down the most has happened. Again. So now I have a challenge, to work through this without hurting anyone. And without wanting to. Because it’s just so easy to remain angry and hurt instead of pulling yourself together, forgiving those that hurt you, and moving on with your life. Trust me I know. But I have learnt so much in the past while that has caused me to realise how insignificant our lives on this earth are. It’s just the blinking of an eye. Who cares how many clothes I have, who I have in my life, or even how I look? These things strictly speaking don’t actually matter, although we would like to convince ourselves that they are imperative. All that should matter is God and whether I am doing my utmost to live for Him, and love others enough to care about their walk. God is enough. He is good. He will take care of me.

It sounds so simple and yet it’s fairly complicated when you consider the self-discipline and focus it takes. Anyone want to become accountability partners?

Best. Friend. Ever.
Do it.

I have always been a spiritual person, but I have allowed myself to become more distant from my faith in the last few years.

I want to grow closer to God/Jesus every day. Every day I want to give my all to Him

Just as the vision, passion, and talent of the great painter can be seen in his art, God has revealed Himself to us through His creation. We should allow ourselves to be awed and moved by the intricacy, wonder and beauty of God’s handiwork. The expanse of the sky filled with stars. The vastness of the oceans. The marvel of the human body.

And remember, the all-powerful Master Creator of the Universe loves you and wants to have a personal relationship with you. He desires it so much that He has painted a magnificent masterpiece in His creation to draw you to His side.

Praise God, Praise Jesus!

This year has been very strange for my walk with God. It’s funny because although I feel stress and anxiety as I write this, as I look back, I realize the powerful grip God has had on my life. He’s led me through so much and is “disciplining” me as his child. He’s preparing me for life and as far as he’s brought me, is wonderful. He’s taken me out of so many awful situations and he’s just more than I could ever explain. The great thing is that the journey and relationship never ends…He’ll always be there and we’ll continue to grow closer forever. This goal can’t necessarily be filled and I think that’s a good thing.