not be so jealous

wow!i always viewed myself as an independent person who didnt need anyone else to make her happy. lol. well then i got my first boyfriend at 17 and that all changed. we started off great. best buds with allot to talk about. then its like i needed him every day. he was 20 at the time, about to be 21. his hormones were more prominenet then ants on a sugar sprinkled doughnut. i had chosen to remain a virgin untill i felt the time was truly right. and i felt that with him it was. i knew he wasnt a virgin , and i thought that i was okay with it, but obviously not. little did i know the kinda girls he was with and how many. i was so jealous. adn i gould not figure out why. was it because he was sexually experienced? was it the type of girls? was it because i was jealous of not being as experienced? or is it for some other crazy reason? this little thing has made me jealous to the point of insanity. but i finally pin pointed it. are you ready for it?

it is because i was still so young.madly inlove. i gave this guy my virginity. had sex with him, which is something i find to be so special and sacred in a relationship.and he was none of those things. i envied that there were other girls out there that got to be with him,and share the most intimate moments in a relationship with him. i envied their relationship with my guy. i am jealous of him. he hit the freaking jackpot with me. all brand new, young stupid(at the time)loving. and i got him used.

lord help me.

this is something i definetly need to work on!

I DID IT AGAIN. I’m so stupid, Why am I like this IM SO STUPID!!!!! I got upset about something dumb again. Over my boyfriend remaking his facebook. I got upset because he did say he deleted it I just didn’t know he remade it… I don’t know why I get upset I guess just seeing other girls makes me jealous I hate myself for this!!!

I’m constantly gettin jealous of my boyfriend. He is such a wonderful guy, my first love, and my life. I know that he wouldn’t cheat on me, But It still scares me when I see him talking to other girls. Even if it is in a friendly manner, I still don’t trust it all that much. It just really scares me and I don’t know what to do about it. =[

now a days i dont get jealous cos i dont have a boy fren( =),main cause of me being jealous was this) and also i have developed a lot of self control … if i get jealous then i think.. that… i am very lucky to be wat i am right now and i cant really ask for more…
i have improved a lot…..

now i guess i have changed a lot…. i still get jealous but not that much as i used to get before.. now i guess i have regained my self confidence and my self respect and most importantly my ego… i feel, wat right that other person has got to make me feel this way… i love myself n anyday im better off alone then bein with someone like that.. i deserve much better things in life n my life is the best gift that i have recieved from god. i am happier now and i really don care about useless people who dont care abt me :)

Talked with someone… It’s not fair not to validate my feelings.

i had a boyfren when i was in college… i was happy with him but after he ditched me i really feel insecure abt myself and since then jealousy never leaves me… im jealous of people even my frens. if my boy fren talks to one of my fren then i get dead jealous n i end up getting angry and i spend my days crying….. i feel its because of the insecurity… i dont know but i need to break this habit of being jealous…. im trying :(

I have everything I need. I have no place for envy in my life any longer.

I think I am a jealous person by nature. I don’t mean the kind of jealous where you don’t want anyone to talk to your boyfriend kind of jealous. I don’t have that kind of jealous at all. I mean jealous of others with seemingly better circumstances than I. That’s the kind of jealousy I fight on a daily basis. I know how to play the game and pretend that I’m happy for someone else’s good fortune, but on the inside, I’m usually eaten up with jealousy. I think a lot more people feel that way than will admit it.