But ever since i was like in 3rd grade i have become realllllly self concious. Its annoying and i wish i was happy with myself. I think i am pathetic because… im drooling over a guy that i might not even be able to get, im fat and nasty, people hate me and say Im annoying, people dont accept me. At my school… people judge alot.. like what you wear and what music you listen to and who you hang out with and they give you a rep that usually isnt true. One of my best freinds boyfriend (b4 i even knew him) thought that i worshiped the devil. His first words to me were “You are a headbanger and you worship the devil so i dont like you”... that was like WTF and now a bunch of his friends think that about me and i let it get to me so i sit home and cry about it and act like it is ok when its not and yeah. I hear people talk about me behind my back and the things that they say make me feel even more pathetic… and then some people just say it to my face and think that it wont hurt me but it does… I think i just need to get higher self esteem and then i will be ok. 6 years ago