stay positive

Have stayed home the last couple of days, as I don’t want to spend any money and each time I go out, I end up spending quite a bit. I may splurge tomorrow, however, and go to a bookstore, get coffee and sit and read. I don’t know why it’s getting more challenging the closer it gets to hubby’s return. Hubby said he thought it might be because we’ve made it through the hardest part and now is the letdown. My mind keeps leaping ahead to him leaving again. Stay in the now!

I read a 43T post about the wave and the trough. Right now I feel pretty much coming out of a deep trough, but there will be a bit of a peak soon!

Hubby’s away at training and I’m trying to stay positive today. I may go to eat at an Indian restaurant that I’ve heard about. Treat myself to a yoga class later.

I looked out the window earlier and it was cold and gloomy. Looked out a few minutes ago and it’s a blizzard! Thankful that snow acts as an insulator.

Today is a big writing day, so it shouldn’t matter that the roads are impassable. Laundry, dishes. Happy I did the shopping yesterday. Thankful for base privileges.

Grateful that hubby is enjoying his training. He will be really good at this.

Thankful for my two cats who keep me amused and are such good companions.

I like myself being positive and feel more energy flowing.

Today has totally sucked. It truly felt like Friday the 13th.

Just have no clue what’s going to happen.

Feelings bounce up and down. When I see hubby again, I’ll be happy. Then he’ll leave for AZ a few days later, and I’ll be sad again. It goes up, it goes down. The only thing that helps is just to focus on my breathing.

This week I am going to:
Stop getting mad for no reason
Remember how lucky I am
Appreciate what I have
Stop worrying about the future

I found myself feeling better about Monday by referring to it as Magical Monday. Each person in my family was to tell something magical about the day at dinner. We tried Terrific Tuesday, Wonderful Wednesday, Thrilling Thursday, and Friendly Friday. Silly, I know, but it did keep me focused on fun things each day.

I had to speak to each member of my family the other day about negative chatter and complaining and lack of confidence. I explained that their complaining and whining about life in general was beginning to really effect me and I just didn’t want to hear it anymore. They agreed that much of it is habit rather than that life is miserable. Life isn’t miserable, life is good and getting better. We all agreed to work on the negative words and tone of our conversations.

I shall reflect on the positive aspects of today which I am grateful for. When I rise I will be positive to start my day by listing 5 things to which I am grateful for.