stay positive

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Good idea!

I work hard at staying positive. I think I am in one more identity crisis – wondering about my worth as a human being on the planet. I love my art but I really seem to need more of a rudder. Making money is simply not happening right now. Teaching is over and art has not launched. I really don’t like being financially dependent on my husband but I am and I am not sure how to reconcile this.

”..i used to have a lot of hard time with this one, until i read the book THE WAY OF THE PEACEFUL WARRIOR.. i had this problem of always worrying, always having regrets.. always wanting to control everything.. never wanting to make mistakes which in turn leads me to making more mistakes anyway.. i used to be so gloomy, pitying myself most of the time.. complaining.. i have so many excuses and so many hurts and pains that i blame everyone except of course, myself.. i realized, that no matter how i think of happy thoughts, i always seem to get back to my negative self.. until i realized, i let most of yesterday and tomorrow use up my today.. i regret a lot about the past and i worry most about the future that i forget to just live my life in the moment.. life has three rules, said the peaceful warrior.. PARADOX, life is a mystery, don’t waste your time figuring it out.. HUMOUR, learn to lugh at yourself, it is a strength in the middle of adversity.. CHANGE, the only permanent thing in the world is change.. there are no ordinary moments if you live in the present.. today is important because it will carry you to tomorrow.. today is important because of what you have become form the past.. never get to where you’re not yet.. live everyday as if it is your last, and dream as if you’ll live forever..”

”..i need to focus on this more often.. i have to look more often in what i have rather than what i don’t have.. i need to choose to be grateful every single day.. every single moment of my life.. i am blessed.. i have a family that loves and support me.. my parents visited me when they found out i was depressed and heartbroken, driving nine hours just to be with me over the weekend.. love them so much! and they even cooked! my brother and sisters were equally supportive.. my sister Chel is always there to listen.. no matter how irritating i turn out to be.. i have great friends.. my bestfriend Thess, stays up late or wakes up early in the morning just to talk to me on the phone (thanks girl, i owe you a lot!), i am also thankful with my other bestfriend Lhen because i knows that she cares for me and that she loves me for who i am, no matter how stubborn and hardheaded i am.. she made me feel that even when she’s busy with work and all the other stuff.. still, i felt her presence and she was always with me.. my CA family, even if i am just new to the community, were amazing.. i never felt such care and support before.. thank you Lord for these people.. for giving them into my life.. i lost the one i love, but i never lost these people who stayed by my side.. they were the ones who kept me going.. i have so much to gain and nothing to lose in moving on.. so i chose to move forward..”

”..i need to work on this as often as i can.. focus, i believe is the key.. to not think of my worries, but instead to think of the solutions.. i know i can do this because i need to.. i have to.. my life depends on this.. my family depends on this.. and so i must have all the courage i can master to move on, continue to dream big and live my life positively..”

”..life is not about finding yourself.. life is about CREATING yourself..”

”..life is what we make of it.. wether we spend our life worrying about everything or celebrating because of everything.. the effort is the same.. so i decided to focus on the beauty of life.. the wonders of sunsets and sunrise.. the calmness of the sea or the rustlings of the rivers.. the sways of the trees and the singing birds.. the music of the rain or kisses of the wind.. a good coffee.. an inspiring book.. a long chat.. an honest laugh.. it’s a great world.. i am to live it with positivity..”

i think my optimism is realistic. i can’t say i see the positive in everything, but i sure see more positive things in life than a lot of people. So, for the sake of making room, and the lack of needing this reminder. it’s done. check

This has been going better lately. Rather than focus on being aware of the present moment, I have been using distraction. When I try to be present, I feel angry. Distraction on something positive—reading, etc., is helping me put time between my feelings of anger and is serving as a bridge to my feelings of contentment.