love myself

The first step to achieve self-love is knowing yourself trully. In oder to achieve it I have weekly psychotherapist sessions. 8 hours ago

1 Loving Myself is buying things I love, not what the ad tells public
2 Loving Myself is sharing my achievements to myself and other people.
3 Loving Myself means collecting praises from others.
4 Loving Myself means keeping warm. 3 days ago

It is hard to find a proper job.
I went to several interviews, all rejections so far.
Improvement is that at least they rejected after seeing me.
I went to a job, which is comission based, again.

I feel very anxious, and I am full of self doubt very often.
I ate food, in excess to fill the gap.
I want to make sure I do not lack of any nutrition even when I lack of a proper job.I want to take good care of my body, at least.
But,it is too much.
I gained 2 inches in the waist. And this is way too much.
I should learn to trust my body, learn to let go the feeling of insuffiency.

I am living in a neighbourhood that I have easy access to many foods.
And I experience the convenience.And that is good enough so far. I cannot have too much at one time. Then fun becomes boring.

I am frustrated, becuz I do not feel valuable.
I do not have a boyfriend, do not have love.
I do not have a proper job.
I am experiencing financial insufficiency.

I never had this problem before. I mean eating excessively, I knew when to stop, I knew how to stop. 4 days ago

Sometimes you have to be selfish.

It’s nice to care about other people and even nicer that you wanna be a better person, but don’t allow yourself to think about others too much. =)

~Maine 5 days ago

People are more understanding than what you think. Just be honest about your feelings. 1 week ago

I am under pressure.
Have 2 interviews this week, 2 interpreting sessions.
Full time studying starts
I ate so much. Yet, I cannot blame myself for it.
I am under tremendous pressure,yet, I cannot talk to my family, as they don’t understand.
I am keeping all of this pressure to myself and it is killing me.
Dear self, sorry for putting you through this pressure.
I know it is a hard time for you, so much to do, and so much to digest.
I promise I will find a way to release this stress, so that you feel more burden-free, so that you won’t need to eat to relieve this stresss.
Thank you for being here for me all the time.
Thank you for being very supportive by digesting these extra food well.
Sorry that I put you through constant weight shift
Sorry that I make you gain 1 inch in the waist.
Thank you for being so strong.
I promise, I will nourish your mind by reading news, I will nourish you soul by reading some meaningful books, and I will take care of your body by the daily eating slowly and chewing well, applying moisturiser daily and massage bath oil after shower 1 week ago

Koffie met appelflap 1 week ago

“I need to live my passionate and would like to pursue___; nothing you will do or say will change me, but in the end, I just want your support on this 1 week ago

Getting anti depressants soon and going to behavioral therapy sometime this month 1 week ago

http://melgama.deviantart.com/ 1 week ago

I’ve taught S about Stumbled Upon which he loves, and he was playing with it yesterday while I was getting ready for dinner. When I came back to my computer later, it opened on the page he’d last stumbled to and found the attached image. It’s a good thought and I’m glad he didn’t stumble away from it. 2 weeks ago

Gottlieb, David. “Children’s dreams and parents’ faith.” _Learning

from the Heart: Lessons on living, loving, and listening._New

York, Library of Congress: 2008
Over the next several years, Billy continued to work with his improv group. He and his wife had a baby. And they continued to struggle financially. Finally prudence forced him to give up his dream and get a regular job-the kind he always said he would hate. But he surprised himself by liking his sales job. And given his improv skills, he was an excellent salesman. I suppose you could say that he "grew up"; but more than that, he simply grew in ways that his elder family members probably did not participate. If the who family had sat down to chart out a career path for Billy, it never would have looked like the one that he created for himself. In finding his own path, he found a way to be happy with his life by following a course that none of us could have imagined. His family thought they knew what was right for him. They were wrong. Billy thought he knew what was right for him, and he was wrong too!

When my nephew Billy was in college, he formed an improv comedy group that was pretty good. In fact, when he graduated, he continued the grp, which began to get some notoriety performing on a number to college campuses. But despite the notoriety, Billy wasn't earning musch from his improv activities. So I watched mos t of hte adults in his family get frustrated and then critical.
I don't know exactly what the family's vision was for Billy's future, but my relatives certainly didn't relish the idea of him making a career of improv comedy. As for all the struggling he had to do to make a living, that was a piece of the family's nightmare-it was what everyone feared.
Then Billy got married. Family concerns escalated. All eyes were on this young, married man with a college education trying to eke out a living as a stand-up comic. At one family gathering, my father (Billy's grandfather) confronted Billy and told him, "You should get a regular job so you can support yourself and your new wife. Forget about this comedy stuff and do something's that's more stable and predictable.
Ever the observer, I listened to what my dad had to say, thinking, "Okay, I can understand everyone's frustration. But I can also understand that this young man has a dream he feels passionate about, and he is pursuing it." 
Then Billy said to my father, "But wait a minute, Pop-pop. Are you saying  you want me to get a job like the one you just retired from?" (My father was a businessman who had run a small Army-Navy store all his life.)
"That's right." 
"But you were miserable in that job for thirty-five years! You said it was boring and you felt trapped but didn't know any alternatives," Billy replied.
My father reflected on his grandson's response, and so did I. At that moment, I recognized that my father was doing what most parents do. Automatically, we try to guide our children based on our own experiences. Often it is an effort to keep our environment stable. The guidance we give them is an attempt to allay our own fears and turn our visions for them into a reality.
So here was some valuable insight. At the age of twenty-two, like most young people, my nephew was confident he knew more about what would make him happy than the adults around him. But what made Billy unusual was that he was willing to take a great risk to pursue his dream. He was risking his family's approval to follow a path no one else before him had taken.
All young people have dreams, and many of those ddreams are not consistent with their families' wishes and expectations. Some families will encourage their children to travel their own paths. And some families will feel anxiety and insecurity when their children begin to craft lives that are seen as "different."

Daniel Gilbert, in his book Stumbling on Happiness, discusses the way people make decisions about their future. Gilbert’s research has shown that those decisions are usually based on what people believe will make them happy. But he has found that we’re not very good at such predictions. And while we put a lot of effort into avoiding what we think will make us miserable, we are also pretty poor at those kinds of predictions as well.
Suppose someone had said to me, when I was thirty-two years old, “Over the next twenty years you will become a quadriplegic, your wife will leave you, and shortly after that she will die. And shortly after that she will die. And shortly thereafter, your sister and parents will die. But don’t worry, you will be happy, anyway.” Imagine what I would have thought.
But that’s exactly what happened. And many people I know who have experienced great adversity have told me that the trauma did change their lives-for the better.
So we are pretty poor at predicting what’s good and bad for ourselves and even less effective when we try to do it for others. One of the reasons we don’t do it well, says Gilbert, is because we makes these predictions based on our past experience or what we have been told about the future by others. But that really doesn’t give us much evidence about the future for ourselves, let alone our children.
The fascinating thing about my family was the way everyone tried to project into Billy’s future and figure out what would make him happy. But no one could foresee what that would be. Not even Billy.
In the poem I quoted at the beginning of this chapter, Kahlil Gibran goes on to say,

You may give them your love but not your thoughts, for they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tommorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.2 weeks ago

Yes I do. I’m going to try my best to give myself a good life and make myself happy.

I promise to love myself the way I want to be loved and always treat myself with respect, kindness, and patience. 2 weeks ago

I cannot find a job,I feel useless.
I am without a relationship, I feel unattractive.
I am poor, I feel worthless.

Ok, this is what is on my mind now.
This is why I ate 3 icecream bars.

Fuck, why can’t family be supportive? 2 weeks ago

1. Pay off student loans
- I paid $5000

2. Jiu Jitsu brown belt and deserve it
-whatever

3. Good health (BMI out of “overweight” and in “low normal” and a FBS below 100)
- I am working on my diet and exercise plan

4. Organize garage so I can get the car into it

5. not want anything 3 weeks ago

1. Eat 1514 calories a day / 500 cal deficit per day in order to achieve weight loss goal of a pound a week for 32 weeks
In order to do this I need to plan the next day’s meal out using items on the food list and start the day with MVI and protein shake

2. Flip the 350 lb tire at the gym – DONE!!!

3. stop wasting time on the internet
– 24h ban on mma dot tv and face book starting 12:00 AM today 2/3/2012 and ending 12:00 AM tomorros 2/4/2012

4. just show up to work and do the job

5. be less hateful and more loving 3 weeks ago