I don’t know if I want this anymore. Strange how these things change. Truthfully, we are not in the best place right now. No surprise, but regardless of statistics and the combined knowledge/wisdom regarding the stress new parents are under, and our instable state, and so forth, I just don’t quite know if and how we’re going to get back to what was or what could have been. The only thing I know for sure now, and I embrace this new knowledge, is that change is constant. Maybe I don’t want to get married, or need to. Maybe I’ll only have one child. Maybe I’ll be good with that, who knows.
Maybe we just need to find the jobs, the place, the relaxing vacation, starry nights, music and wine, and dammit some good months or probably years of that and then we’ll be back to what and how we were at our best.
I feel very old right now, but for now, it’s okay. 4 months ago