List my fears

Time has passed and I realize I have many fears, one of the is to go back to my pass, what I mean is to see everybody I used to know, my husbands family, my husband, my friends. I left Illinois a long time ago I left my husband my life with him. But I promised his grandma that I will go so she can see our daugther Katie, thats the worse fear ever for me. Just knowing he has somebody else already and I have all this feeling for him, and knowing he doesnt want to talk to me im scared of this fear.
I fear to fall in love again
I fear my thoughts, because they can trick me
I fear my self sometimes, because I can be selfish
I fear the dark and to be alone
I fear my future ex-husband
I fear to get out of my shell, but how will I know this world?
I fear file for my divorce
I fear not having anything to hold on to
I fear lies
I fear to have a lonely life
I fear that what my ex told me about me is true
I fear my future, thats something I cant look forward to

I’ve got it. I’m afraid that it might not go away.

I should have received an invitation to the wedding reception but I didn’t. I’m afraid that my presence was unwanted. I’m also afraid that I lost a friend.

Since I’ve been working on Going Paperless I’ve been scanning and shredding many paper documents. I’m afraid that I’ll need to provide a receipt, statement, or letter for something and that my electronic version will be rejected.

I’m too worried about all the unimportant junk in my life. If I ended up homeless where would I keep all of my clutter?

With my current job I don’t have a regular income. I’m compensated with tips and commissions. I’d really hate to go broke. If I went broke I think that the worst part would be my father giving me an “I told you so” lecture and still insisting that I get a different job.

I used to enjoy airline travel. Now I have some anxiety about flying. I think part of it is because of some negative feelings about the process of traveling. I don’t care for the pricing games that airlines play. And I’m not a big fan of the security gauntlet.

And once an airline lost my luggage. It was eventually returned to me at 2am. I’m not sure why they couldn’t wait until a reasonable hour during the morning. And I’m not fond of all the headaches involved if you ever need to make changes to your flight. And I really dislike it when an airline cancels your flight and forces you into making changes to your itinerary.

An acquaintance recently had an event at his place of work and went to the hospital. He was doing much better when I spoke to him yesterday. It may be a while before he’s able to go home. I am thankful that the people around him where able to get medical assistance.

I am afraid that I’ll be alone if I have a tragedy.

I’m afraid that I’ll misplace the mail and by the time I get back to it I’ll have past due bills.

All the sodium that I ingest through my sad excuse of a diet needs to go somewhere. I’m afraid that it is paving a path for hypertension and heart failure.