get over my fear of heights

tomorrow.

_{Wish me luck :)}

and didn’t care about the height of any rides after going on Oblivion.

I must be getting better at this goal.

Sea Cliff Traversing last weekend and went pretty high. I didn’t feel scared at all :D. Then we jumped off the side of the cliff into the sea and I felt a bit frightened but I jumped anyway and it was great!

save me

So that one day i can bungee jump or sky dive

Crossed the aqueduct with no problems. Then went on to the ramparts of Harlech Castle.

The beauty of getting over this fear is that when you visit somewhere like Pistyll Rheaedr waterfall, you can stand at the top of the 74 metre drop and admire the view… which you can see my lady doing in the photo, and I did shortly after.

So, if you have this goal, go for it… first thing I had to do was get over the meta-anxiety – that bit which means you’re scared of being scared and don’t even try things… then embrace the fear and as long as it’s a safe situation, just do it. Deep breaths… keep calm… and a world of possibilities will open up for you.

Nuts to this fear. It’s not real anyway.

I’ll be going back to the aqueduct at the weekend.

Went up on to the roof of the pictured observation tower (Pyynikin Näkötorni) during my trip to Finland. The photo was taken from the much higher Näsinneulan Näkötorni.

The former had the potential to be more scary due to having to walk up steps around the cage-lift shaft (I wasn’t going to attempt the lift), and old wooden steps, and being in the open air at the top.

I had my moments, but didn’t let any anxiety stop me. I also didn’t suffer meta-anxiety – the main thing I’ve been working on. I now only allow myself to be scared while actually participating in being at height, rather than thinking about it. :)

I’m so frightened of heights. I’ve never really tried, but I try to rock climb @ camp and go up steep stairs. I’m also scared of depths, but thats another story for another time.

I really want to be able to get over it but its just so hard. The ironic thing is that I absolutly LOVE aiplanes. I guess its because I feel safe, but whenever I try to rock climb or even walk over say the brooklyn bridge I feel unstable.

I’ll try my best to keep pushing until my fear is gone!

In under 5 months, I’ll be up here. My meta-anxiety is already high, but I won’t let it beat me. I’m going up, dammit.

Anyway… it’s no big deal really. Just a ride with some nice views.