get over my fear of heights

I fear stairs. I wish someone could carry me down them…
I always think I’m going to fall.
But I don’t like escalators or elevators either, if only for the change in elevation.

Heights!!!! o.O

I don’t even want to start and yet…..

I don’t know where it came from or exactly when it started. Heights scare me, I do not enjoy roller-coasters, there is a part of me that just can’t deal with it. So I am trying to get to the bottom of it, face it and move on. I am not afraid of flying anymore. I’ve learned to enjoy it. I need to find it in me to face incredible heights and go on the roller-coaster ride of a life time. I am not afraid of death. I have faced that fear and found peace in the fact of my mortality. I think I need to deal with my fear of loss of control. Any advice?

I think my fear of flying is improving but it depends on the company :) I am almost sure by now, that fear of heights is not related to fear of flying.

I think my fear of flying is improving but it depends on the company :) I am almost sure by now, that fear of heights is not related to fear of flying.

...and I went up the tower on Vaalserberg in the Netherlands/Belgium/Germany. (The tower is actually in Belgium).

I nearly didn’t do it, but my lady was very good and I decided that rather than suffering meta-anxiety, I’d go and suffer some real anxiety. I was very pleased with myself in the end.

Video here

I’ve been doing really well with this due to all of the climbing (some outdoors and very exposed!) and summiting peaks and things like that- I was summiting a 13,800-ish ft peak, and there was a razor edge on one side, hundreds and hundreds of feet straight down, a sheer drop-off, and I was RIGHT on the edge, looking out to the other peaks, etc. My dad got scared for me and had to yell at me to come back to the safer side!! I also went to the Royal Gorge a few days ago in Canon City, it was 1,055 ft where we were- I walked across the bridge, too!- the highest suspension bridge over water in the world! It was sooooooooo insanely high up, and it was pretty far across the gorge, so I was pretty scared, but rightly so, and it was exciting scary, not I-want-to-go-home-and-cry-in-a-corner-in-the-fetal-position kind of scary.

• the picture is looking out from the bridge, about 1,055 ft. above the water… the bright blue rafts in the bottom left are so tiny, you can’t see them.

after going on the kama kaze at magic mountain.. i am no longer scared of heights. :)

Argh…

tomorrow.

_{Wish me luck :)}