enjoy this Spring by having one new and fulfilling experience in April, May, and June

I was wrong. It has been learning to hold my tongue. There have been frequent situations where I have wanted to say so much more then I did but would have resulted in catastrophe if I had done so. I walked away from them and was able to walk back into them with my head held high. Wow, what a surprise.

and the subject was: Fear, False evidence appearing real.
Wow, that hit pretty close. I’ve been pretty fearful lately. I knew that the phrases “fear not” or “do not be afraid” was the third most spoken concept in the New Testament. Right behind “Love the Lord your God” and “Love each other”. What I didn’t know was that it was conveyed 365 times. 365. 365 days in the year. So, if I choose to, I could hear Him tell me not to be afraid every day of the year; year after year. The minister was right. There are healthy fears and unhealthy fears. I believe that the enemy charades himself behind the mask of unhealthy fear. I believe that he whispers into our ears and our souls and uses that unhealthy fear to lead us away just as abusers use isolation to break the people they abuse. Separate them from the ones who love them and you can break them. I believe that the only power the enemy has over me is the power I give him. I believe that even the demons will leave me alone in His name. I do not have to be afraid of anything. I don’t have to worry about getting sick or dieing and not influencing my children. I already have. I will continue to do so as long as I can. In the worst case scenario: The people in left in their lives will not let them forget me. I have the faith to say that I believe that I’ll be around as long as I need to be around. It is my fervent prayer that I make the most of the time I have left with them. I believe that we all are in his hands and that we do not need to be afraid. This is by no means a new experience. It is however one of the most fulfilling ones on memory.

The journey that my folks and I have had has been an eventful and scary ride to say the least. However, it has also been one of the most rewarding ones as well. This year, on Mother’s day, not only will we give her some beautiful sapphire earrings, I can honestly say that the friendship we now share will top it all in my mom’s book! Thank you God!

This will be the first time that I have with out relapsing. I told her the other night,as she was nailing me with every gun in her arsenal, that the days of my relapsing over the guilt that I feel over failing her as a mother were gone. That I have been forgiven and that more then that; I have forgiven myself. I can not make up for the mistakes I made. I can however move on and do better now. But for the grace of God go I.

My experience for June was definitely being maid of honor in my college roommate’s wedding. I took my job of making sure she looked fabulous seriously! I really enjoyed helping her get ready in the morning and making sure her dress was perfect during the ceremony and pictures. I’m so happy for her, and I hope she’s enjoying her three-week Hawaiian honeymoon!

Tonight I saw Keith Urban at Philips Arena. It was an outstanding show. Urban is considered New Country but this show was about as rockin’ as you can get. 4 guitar players! Yes 4. There was a guitar solo in practically every song, not country solos, rock guitar solos.

The band was so tight, a well-oiled machine. The show was choreographed with moving stages, even a whole other complete stage that rose at the end of the catwalk.

I wish I knew more of this material. I only know a handful of songs. Still I can say I enjoyed each song. There was just a great energy from Urban and from the crowd.

Never seen him before, so yeh, for June seeing Keith Urban was new and fulfilling.

Being 39 weeks pregnant is definitely new and fulfilling!! I am just waiting for the baby to come out, but knowing he’s safely inside my body growing stronger is very fulfilling.

is over, and I had…

April: a nice trip to CA with a group of friends, and a stop at the right place for some “fulfilling” strawberries :)

May: The job interview (and the notion that I might not be that off from the “real” world), no matter what the outcome will be.

June: Over-sleeping, boredom, confusion… all the great things that follow graduation :)

Summer is here now, and I did have a good spring. Now time to continue and see where things lead.

I have been rather busy the beginning of June. Attended a retirement party for a co-worker earlier in the month. Participated in a garage sale with my brother (I don’t do garage sales well). Took a new quilting class to learn another technique. Started summer school to begin “finishing up my degree”. Took a training class for the Make a Wish foundation. Celebrated my son’s birthday by taking him out to dinner and buying the gift he really wanted.