be a better girlfriend

I think I’m doing good on this. Our relationship is stronger than before. Only, he never tells me which parts of me he likes (that I should highlight) and which doesn’t (that I should correct).

I never want to lose my cutie :3

last night my boyfriend and i got in a fight, and although i wasn’t happy..it wasn’t something we were going to fix. i just let it go

I am always mean to him.
I want to be better at being his girlfriend, but when i try i turn in to his mum, asking him if he wants food, washing his clothes…

I need to be a better girlfriend while staying JUST his girlfriend, not his housekeeper.

Because I just feel that I am not giving everything I can. There is something that’s stopping me, but I can’t figure what. I love him, I really do, and I feel like I owe him something, although he never mentioned it. I want to help him accomplish his goal (returning confidence), to show him how much he means to me and how much is he worth. Maybe I’m the one who first needs the courage and a push, to complete this.
First part is reducing my jealousy and envy, which is far beyond the limits. I should put this as a separate goal…

Told him that I’m PMSing. It does make a difference.
Told him how I’m feeling and why, and we talked about it.
I listened to him talk about it.
I encouraged him.
I accepted his love and the sweet things he says.
He is in a very stressed-out time: I’m thinking of doing a loving thing and cooking a yummy dinner this weekend and some good meals to have during the week. He loves meatloaf, that’s probably the way to go.
We’re probably going to be living together in the next couple of months. I got a couple of books on that to prepare for that.

I think just wanting to do better will help me be better because I’ll be conscious of what I’m bringing to the relationship.

well….i talked to him about us giving our relationship a 100% full fledged last attempt before we discuss giving up,and he just made snyde comments and negative remarks :( so instead i went at it alone, doing all the things i could to eliminate the things that bothered him, such as the constant bitching,not cleaning the house consistently, letting him have more freedom etc etc…..and it seems all hes done is take my inch im working on and run miles with it,at the same time changing none of his ways and coming up with new things i do that bother him,while im just getting the last ones worked on :( soooo frustrated and dissappointed….

I feel like my boyfriend and I are drifting apart, and i deffo don’t want that to happen. So i need to make us stronger.
I love him so much.
I don’t know how to be better :(

we have been together for two years. we had a lot of unforgettable experiences together..experiences that made our relationship stronger and better; experiences that tested our love..

on our first year, i feel so secured about him yet as the months went by..i am feeling less secure..i caught him many times, exchanging text messages with his first love..i know that i’m not his first love.but i am quiet sure that he loves me more.

yet, it makes me feel so insecure. He assured me that he won’t communicate with her anymore..but then i caught him the second, and the third time around. i may be so stupid for giving more than his second chance. is he worth the chance?

i have made a mistake once in our relationship..
but i have regretted it all my life. it wasn’t like i intended to do it. but then as what he keeps on telling me is that i had a choice before.
i was sorry for it and he “accepted” the apology.

all the jealousy and insecurity that i feel when he’s not around or when he’s texting her or other else is i guess enough to pay for my mistakes.

i never lied to him again..i am always faithful and supportive.
i just hope that he would see all of these sacrifices and love. i wish that he would feel how important and how lucky he is.

but then i am not sad..
i know that he’s there for me and when we are together, i know that he is true.
i just wish and hope that we’ll be better..
i just miss my behbeh now.
i just miss how he was before.
i know that he loves me and he makes me happy still but then there are things which are not at all like before. things that were gone.. maybe i was just so used to it.
now i must not be.
i must not set expectations for us to be happy.
i know he’s so close.

i just want to make my boyfriend happy and
i am such a trying hard to make him smile everyday..
but you know everything is sooo worth it!:)