cut my arms for every mistake i've made

It’s been almost 60 days since i stopped cutting my wrists. It’s not similar to other addictions, just that nothing got me so down these months.

This is how it goes, i get used to the pain. So if someone leaves me i have to cut myself and let it bleed. Of course it sound disgusting or freaky. This is just a side of me. I live with it trying sometimes to quit this bad behavior.
I know it’s wrong.