learn to trust God completely, knowing He is in control and all things work together for His glory

Jeremiah 17:7-8
Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, and whose trust is the Lord. For he will be like a tree planted by the water, That extends its roots by a stream And will not fear when the heat comes; But its leaves will be green, and it will not be anxious in a year of drought nor cease to yield fruit.

I just found out I’m being transferred to NY in May. a bit of a shock as just a short month ago I thought I was losing my job. Now I know it’s safe, but I will have to live apart from my family half the month, and money will be even tighter as I will have to rent a place in NY too.
It’s easy to worry, stress and complain about all that is going on. but it doesn’t change it and it doesn’t help.

It’s amazing the peace you have when you give you problems to God.

God constantly amazes me!!
I’m overwhelmed
sometime there just aren’t even words to express
How GREAT is His love

it’s been one of those times when everything happens at once
as soon as I set the phone down, it rings again with more bad news
Some of it involves the whole family. Some of it is more specifically aimed at me … but none of it has been good.
Most of it wasn’t even thing that I could discuss with friends or even family… its pretty overwhelming when you can’t even tell the people in your own house of a major tragedy in another family members life… sigh
I felt pretty alone
but God has an amazing way of giving us just what we need, just when we need it. Never too much, but always enough.
Just as he provided for the Hebrews in the desert as they escaped from Egypt. We look back and say “why did they complain? Didn’t they see Gods power, that He was in control and was providing their every need?”
Can we see the same thing?

here are tqo verses God gave me this last week

Psalms 57:1-2

Be gracious to me, O God, be gracious to me,
For my soul takes refuge in You; And in the shadow of Your wings
I will take refuge Until destruction passes by.
I will cry to God Most High,
To God who accomplishes all things for me.

Psalms 94:14

For the Lord will not abandon His people,
Nor will He forsake His inheritance.

sometime
we just need to remember Who is in control
Psalms 25:5
guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,and my hope is in you all day long.
perspective

even _{or especially} in the storms

My 9 to 5 day job has been the biggest stress of my life. I have done everything I could in my power to improve it. Yet the harder I try the worse it gets. So I am handing it over all to God. If He wants me to stay there, He will have to keep me with His power, because I cannot.

This situation (like all of them) is in God’s hands, not mine. This is another trial to pull me closer to Him and teach me to rely on Him completely. I’m feeling the need to schedule time to really sit down and focus on my reading and studying. God is really all I need. It’s time to give Him more of my attention.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for these trials, even though I sometimes curse them. Thank you for your patience when I curse them. Thank you for pushing me to the point where I finally just have to say “Enough already!” Thank you for giving me hope and thoughts that strengthen me. Thank you for life. Thank you for joy. Thank you for allowing me to appreciate. Thank you for serenity in the midst of the chaos. Thank you for the ability to move forward. Thank you for showing me what can be changed and what must stay as it is. Thank you for leading me through it all. Thank you for pulling me closer to you. Thank you for the long winding road in which I’m standing in the middle. Thank you for the ability to feel gratitude to you. Thank you for an open, growing, understanding heart. Thank you.
Love,
Your daughter

These last few days have been crazy hard. I had to watch many worker get laid off last week and say good bye to friends that I have worked closely with for years. Then just yesterday another wave of lay offs was announced to begin in January. I have know idea where it will stop, rummer has it that it wont, that the company is being slowly absorbed into another. This rummer has been going around for a year now and in reality that is what it looks like, and even with my seniority level, I wont last for many more cuts … I feel like a blind man in the dark

funny thing … just as I started to feel that way
I read this verse

Isaiah 42:16
“I will lead the blind by a way they do not know, In paths they do
not know I will guide them. I will make darkness into light before
them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do,
and I will not leave them undone.”

I don’t think it is coincidence that I read this verse at this time, just when I had that ever thought of feeling like I was blind and groping in the dark go through my mind. I think it was God’s perfect timing. He knows our deepest thoughts and He has plans for us that we don’t even know about
How can we fear or worry when we know the God who created the universe is in control

It’s hard to trust God sometimes…
When Mary’s cancer is not getting better but worse
When I have to work in an office plagued by wackos
When my singing voice does not improve
When I am in my late thirties, and still have not met the right guy

So I turn to all the other blessings God has for me…
- My aunt is turning to God. We found prayer partners in each others.
- Melinda, Lucy, and I are growing closer.
- All the friendships in my life now are life-long and of top quality.
- I am growing stronger and more peaceful within even though my exterior body is growing older and weaker.
- I am becoming more and more prepared to be a wife and mom even though there is no family. God’s work is weird according to my human understanding.

seems to be helping SO MUCH!

No matter what’s happening, I have so much to be grateful for each day, each moment. The more I focus on these blessings, the more I find myself realizing more to be grateful for. God’s constant protection and supply…such amazing individuals who actively bring joy to my life…opportunities to enjoy beautiful views, sounds, etc. Thoughts like these make me smile and bring tears to my eyes. I’m beginning to understand the truth and importance in being grateful “for the good already received”. With each gratitude, it seems I’m “receiving” more to be grateful for.