stop drinking alone

I’m finding that if I get started with another beverage as soon as I get home, then I don’t even think about having a beer. These days my house is cold when I get home so I’m drawn to the kettle and start some tea and end up drinking cup after cup of tea all evening.

Need to find a way to do this in the warm weather as well, maybe try to always have lemonade in the fridge.

No drinking tonight. Tea only.

I drink alone all the time. After bad days, long days, even good days, I always have a reason for it, and its never ever a good idea. It makes me irrational, emotional and sad. And then I never feel good in the morning when I have to go to work.
My mother is an alchoholic, it ruined her life, I don’t want to be like her.

Last night after a seriously annoying evening of car trouble, canceled plans, nice strangers, rude strangers, walking in uncomfortable shoes because I forgot my sneakers were in the trunk of my car all along, a missed bus, a mall that closed super early and food court food that burned my throat, I got home at 9:30 (I’d left work at 5:15) and was so tempted for a glass of wine. But I drank chamomile and read a book instead.

This would be a lot easier if the boyfriend wanted to drink more often…

Lets say I’m hanging out with some friends, for example watching the superbowl or bowling. I have 2 beers, so as to not get tipsy and not be able to drive myself home. When I get home, I desire another beer for continued relaxation and to complete the evening. Is that considered drinking alone? If so I am guilty. Repeatedly.

I will NOT offer a beer to the furnace salesman as an excuse to drink one myself. I will NOT offer a beer to the furnace salesman as an excuse to drink one myself. I will NOT offer a beer to the furnace salesman as an excuse to drink one myself.

Haha, OK that’s pretty much a joke. But the very fact that it crossed my mind has me worried about myself.

I cannot even believe how tempted I am. Seriously.
Yesterday morning was really bad for me, and when I got home in the evening, after dinner and a nice evening out with a friend I caught myself making excuses “you had such a hard day and it’s so cold in here, why not just one glass of wine…”. Then I bucked up and drank chamomile instead reminding myself that I was already over the panic and tea is warmer than wine and if I did open a bottle of wine and drink just one glass, chances are I’d end up finishing the bottle in just a few days…

I guess that proves how much I need to do this.

Boyfriend and I went snowboarding on Friday. I got tired and decided to quit about 20 minutes early so I went into the lodge to get something warm to drink and then found myself sitting out in the beer garden relaxing with a beer. I didn’t even think of it as drinking alone until later that night. Now I’m making all these excuses to myself, it was a treat after a hard workout. I was with a whole crowd of people. I wasn’t alone in my house… Ugh. No good.

And now I’m sitting here thinking about how nice a glass of wine would be… No. I will drink tea. And more tea. And more tea…

I drink alone when I’m bored. And that just seems incredibly pathetic. There’s an entire world out there. Is it really necessary to self-medicate?