value myself

i know the right answers to questions.

..

too bad i am to shy to say them out loud..

my short story was published.
i might get into the conservatory.
i know quite a lot of things.

the guy seemed enthusiastic of my capacities and look O__O

yesterday i received two unexpected presents! it was a nice surprise that made me think they appreciate me more than i think. they must see something good in me if they choose to give me presents for my b-day even if no one else in that context did. so i must have some qualities i can’t see…i always feel so stupid and inapt. most of the time i feel that, when i speak, people are thinking “oh what a pain in the ass!!”...maybe this is not always true.

oh my.

sometimes i’m really WISE.

i can sing notes quite well at first-sight!!!!

i feel blesed in so many ways. i have great kids,a job,education,and in most circles(and i will say this) i am considered very good looking. however, my lack of self esteem, keeps me from trying harder at my job or believe i am worth dating. i think people look at me and think i am confident,and unapproachable when i am really insecure. i drink at nite when i am alone and i feel sorry for myself…i am such a loser

old friends think i am sensitive, open-hearted, positive…

i almost started crying

i am smart with computer stuff!!

i am brave
SOMETIMES.