disclaimer: people AREN’T perfect
Really drenching this into prayer….i shared my heart to my pastor’s wife abt how i dislike the church and reason’s justifying it to her and she was very empathetic and telling me do what is what’s best for me…don’t worry about guilt trip, out of obligation.(like hmmmph i have to be here my whole life..that I am really fired for this church and really what it offers and how I can be a part of that..
she is happy (pastor’s wife) that I want to mingle with people that aren’t like me…she says the people who I think are most different are actually similar to me…going thru the same trials and etc.
who knows? maybe ill be uncomFORTable because lol maybe the new group i can identify as problematic because they are like always talking about their problems when sometimes I have a “reserved” side, part of me 2 weeks ago