have more confidence

I need to regain my confidence in order to do the things I want to do in life. Simple.

I want to have invincible confidence in myself.

I’ve always struggled with self-confidence due to some difficult experiences in the past, but I plan to change that very soon. This summer I will be selling educational books door to door. While it may seem like the craziest thing I’ve ever done, I am doing it for that very reason. I’ve never left my comfort zone and I’ve always suffered in the confidence department. My roommate recruited me for the job. While everyone is telling me that I can’t do it because I’m so shy, or I just don’t have that outgoing “salesperson personality”, I will show them that it has nothing to do with being outgoing. That I will learn how to become outgoing through the confidence I build, and that selling is a skill. I will also be proof that people don’t need a salesperson who fits all the stereotypes of one to buy from. People would rather buy from genuine, hard-working, believe-in-the-product kind of person. I will see this and learn how to gain confidence with each family I talk to this summer. When I return home at the end of the selling period I will be a new person in terms of growth of confidence and maturity.

Well i guess it all started when i found out i was ugly and kids talk about you hey! ididnt know that people thought i was unattractive untill 2nd grade but i didnt start noticing that no one thought i looked nice untill 5th grade i mean all of this people pretending to like me as a friend but can’t hang out with me because what? Im to hideous to be thier friends for some people its easy to say “hey I dont care what they think” but sometimes alot of the ones who say that really do care where i stand with confidence i have none and i have low self esteem none of my friends see what im going threw but hey i cant tell them because they would say just forget about it but cant they see its not that easy if it was i would have felt better by now.

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Its been to long since Ive made any entry on this thing. I’m the kind of person who starts something like this and then just walks away from it, thinking Ive made a start and it will just snowball into what i want the outcome to be. Well this has changed Ive planed to return to college again in September and its my goal to return a me better version, kind of like the Six million Doller Man. Build myself from the ground up. take things one step at a time without loosing focus on my goal instead of looking at the big picture, which freaks my out take it step by step. Will make more entries about my progress

I have never had any confidence in myself. I’m always putting myself down and letting others walk all over me. I hope that someday I can truly believe in myself and my abilities.

I really wish I had more confidence. I cannot go anywhere without worrying about my self image and how much I hate it. Granted everything with me is physically fine, but all the work that I have done to get where I am at today doesn’t payoff because I think I need to be slimmer, or toner or something. I always have something bad to say about myself even tho there is nothing to be upset about. This is just a seesaw of feelings that trigger every other negative aspects to my life. I wish I could just accept who I am!

in just about every aspect of my life

My initial step in this goal will be to sensor my thoughts in regards to how I think about myself. This in turn will hopefully also stop me from verbalizing negative comments that I sometimes state about myself.