weigh 55kg

Wow. After a terrible few weeks (though it felt like years) I’m finally feel back on track with my eating. I’m ready to start again and loose this weight.

My target is 55kgs and I will be there by the 1st of Feb. It will be difficult over the Christmas period but I’m going to do it this time. I know I can! =]

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Fuck. I’ve messed this up so much. I’ve sorted myself a new plan for December till January. That’s my new goal date. 55kgs by the 1st of January.

I’m really gutted I didn’t make it this month.

I’ll weight myself this Saturday (1st of Dec) and then again the next weekend and see how much I missed this goal by.

I’ve been really unfocused on losing weight but I feel better about it now. I’ve done shit but I know I can lose it. I’ve got this far and I’ll keep trying till I get there.

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After my horrid week of eating and then my strange week of eating next to nothing I’m still not very near my goal of 55kgs. I doubt if I will make 55kgs by the end og the month. I’m still gonna work at it. I’ll get there for the end of December.

Okay, so last week was terrible and I went shooting back up to 60. This week has been a lot better and I will have lost, but how much, I don’t know.

I don’t think I’m going to reach 55kg to be honest, but there is no way I’m dumping Alex. That was silly. Lol. Anyway, I’m gonna carry on loosing this weight and I’ll see how much I am at the end of November and set myself another goal.

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Ooooh. So, this weekend I weighed and I had dropped to 58kg! I was so chuffed. It was awesome. It was my goal for the end of that week and I just couldn’t help smiling. I was pretty proud of myself. =]

Then, I go and fuck it up over the rest of the weekend and binge on loads and loads of shit. It was the worse weekend I had in a long time. =[ I’m fucking gutted.

This coming week, really push myself then weigh on Saturday. Then I’ll keep my eating under control for the rest of Saturday and Sunday. I have to.

Eeek. So I’m not really loosing anything. However, I have a feeling I’ve stalled and I’m maintaining, which is better than gaining! I’m still around 59.2kgs, give or a take a bit.

I’m going to weigh myself today and God willing I’m lower.

I must be at 55 for the end of November.

Bloody hell. I’m back to 59kgs again. Grrr. This coming week I’m gonna work extra hard to restrict all day then eat a small non-meat, limited carb dinner. No snacking afterwards as well! Hopefully, I’ll make it yoga on Wednesday and maybe aerobics on Friday. I’m going to fast one day as well. Then weigh on Sat/Sun and hopefully see a drop. I’m running out of time.

I’m not doing very well…I got to 59.4kgs, but then shot back up to 60 again. =[

I can’t see to stop eating. I’m gonna pray.

I’ve set myself another challenge. The forfit is terrible. =[ I’m ashamed I’ve made it.

Hm. I will be able to loose this weight. And if I don’t…I will finish it with Alex. He deserves better that a fatty like me. Even though it’s a horrid forfit, it will keep me focused and determined.

Let’s start.
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So I’ve reached 60kg and now its time for 55kg. I’m not starting on my proper plan until the 1st of October but I’m still going to keep trying to drop the weight.

I’ve got a rough plan in my head, but I need to start doing some exercise. I’m thinking an hour of yoga and an hour of cardio a week. Plus the walking I do anyway.

Hmmm. So many things to do!

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