have more self esteem

My self esteem has always been really low. I am aiming to raise it dramatically!

For some reason everytime i have a boyfriend my self-esteem goes WAY down. Maybe it’s a form of self sabotage, idk.

I think going to a college so far away from anybody that I knew helped a lot with this. I had to make all new friends but I still have people who care about me back home. It’s nice to have a bunch of people who care about you, that definitely helps with the self esteem.

Plus, the fact that I built a new life for myself without anybody else is comforting. I can be on my own and be alright.

I think it will also go up as a go to school and know more things. It always feels good to know what you’re talking about.

I AM TIRED OF EATING TOO MUCH AND NOT EVER GETTING FULL. I’M TIRED OF BEING TIRED AND NOT WANTING TO DO THE THINGS I LOVE TO DO, SUCH AS RIDING MY HORSES, WALKING, EVEN BENDING OVER AND TYING MY SHOES. I FEEL THAT I’M AN EMBARRASSMENT TO MY 17 YEAR OLD SON, AS WELL AS MY WHOLE FAMILY. I AM CERTAINLY AN EMBARRASSMENT TO MYSELF MOST OF ALL. BUT SOMEHOW, I CAN’T SEEM TO STOP EATING WAY TOO MUCH, THEN AFTERWARDS SAY, “TOMORROW I AM GOING TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER AND START A PROGRAM.” TOMORROW NEVER COMES, OR IF IT DOES, IT ONLY LASTS ABOUT A WEEK. I AM TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL AND NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER.

so much has happened since i first picked this goal. for a little while my self esteem was doing great but now things are getting to push me down but im trying! i try to pick out a thing i like about myself everyday…and im begining to compare myself to others (yeah kinda bad but everyone does it right? hahaha) im starting to thing “Well at least im not annoying like them!” hahaha!

I’m a very shy, quiet person and it’s hard for me to open up to others. It’s also hard for me to have self esteem but that’s something I work on daily and think I am getting better with it. I think it’s hard b/c I’m way too judgemental and critical of myself for whatever reason. No one is perfect and I need to realize this about myself. I’ve always been told I have a Type A personality. I see people who are happy with themselves and think, why don’t I feel like that most of the time? As I said, it’s a process and one that I hope to progress day by day!

it’s hard to do when you do think you arent who you want to be yet.

the other day a guy ive only known for about 2 hours actually asked me,”You have low self esteem,dont you?” Yeah…hahahaha how do you answer that?! Basically i think that makes it worse!

I constantly find myself comparing myself negatively to other girls. I have trouble trusting because I have a low self esteem. Does anyone have any ideas on what I can do to help myself?

I’m really working on this and being more confident. I know I have alot to offer the world if I get all the bad things out of my head. The more concous I am of how negative I am about myself the easier it is becoming. I really hope to over come this.