Let someone treat me like I deserve

Once again, I’ve slept with someone who doesn’t really care about me. Someone who has trouble looking me in the eye now. Not that I go around sleeping with dozens of random men, this is the first guy I’ve been with in quite awhile. It just doesn’t do much for my self-esteem when I put myself in situations for guys to use me, even if they are nice and don’t mean to hurt my feelings.

It just takes so long for me to find someone and damn it, I wanted some!

I seem to be one of those girls who fall for guys who either treat them like dirt, or just don’t treat them like anything at all. Being respected by a guy is such a foreign concept that I push away anyone who treats me like I should be treated.