stop thinking

my head is full

If I say or think (safer!) the lyrics when I’m listening to a music, I stop thinking. I never remember the lyrics, I’ll try to pay more attention.. (well, I tried today and it lasted a few seconds).

A few days ago I realized that I stopped dreaming/imagining.

What a shock! I’ve always been dreaming about some boys, my neighbor, a guy in the street, a friend of a friend…, always been imagining romantic and dramatic stories where I would be savagely loved. You know, the typical dramatic love novel such as Scarlett O’hara. Haha. I always kinda thought I should stop to read and to idealize love/passion like this – I was even dreaming of other boys/stories when being with my boyfriends! You just can’t be satisfied if you have so big expectations. But I couldn’t fight, I’m a dreamer, I kept dreaming.

And now, nothing, and I can’t remember when was the last time.. Dunno if I’m happy with that, it looks like it doesn’t make things better. Haha~!

I’m still stunned to realize that, I’m a dreamer, what’s left now Oo

I want to stop anticipating bad stuff. Sometimes I can get very angry and upset about stuff that haven’t happened yet and may never happen anyway. I can realize it and tell to myself: are you really complaining about something that didn’t happen? Just stop it! And 5min later I will be deep in these dark useless thoughts again.

I want to stop replaying events that happened before and made me feel bad. I can dream all night of a conversation I had the previous day, re-doing the scene, finding new words to express myself.. reviewing what I should have done and said.. And I’m not doing that only in dreams!

I think this is a good way to learn and improve, but the point is this is a good way to feel like shit as well..

I want to feel and enjoy more!!! Be more often spontaneous rather than responsible, be more close to what I want rather than what people think of me.

In progress.. ~!

Hi there guys,
Am new to this 43 things site. I believe that living in the western world we are forced to have alot of thoughts and unfortunatly usually very complicated ones that lead people to feel a great deal of anxiety and discomfort which I guess is why most of us are focusing on this topic. Its not about reducing thoughts rather where we foucs them. Kaizen is a japanese term that is used to describe the idea of being totally absorbed in somthing. It breeds a sense of confidence, serenity, poise, humor, control, and freedom, all of which stem from being in the present. Finding something to launch yourself into is the key being free from anxiety and the thoughts we wish were not there.

no possible way you can do this. although drugs help.

keep yourself busy…find more hobbies…then start to sit in silence. start with 3 minutes of silence then go and be busy again…then the next day take 5 minutes of silence…train yourself and your brain to chill and not freak you out. were all humans…animals…but there are ways around this.

it’s like void. there’s no complete void. there’s aways an intruder, there’s aways an outsider.

can you clean your mind? can you safely close it? can you stop the echoes of your own refletions?

yet, my brain has a frequency as my heart has heartbeats. then, i was washing dishes and i’ve forgotten i’m myself. and i’ve remembered my own name rarely in half a hour.

oooooookkkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy?????

that while thinking makes your brain hurt and gives you emotional pain that you didn’t think you would experience, it’s necessary for growth. That doesn’t mean I like it, it just means that it’s going to keep happening.

Thus, I am giving up on this goal.