gaiaiag find the seed of self destructive approach and destruct it
i have given 13 kilos. but have to give 15 more. it has stopped. I really do not eat much but.. My metabolism has gone under basal :D. I can not exercise so much. I can not drink much water either. this 15 does not seem to go. I keep telling myself that i have been far beautiful. People are atracted even now. :D I can not imagine what tehy will be doing when i reach my goal. MAy be i should keep the fat for everyones sake ;) . i love Hedi Slimane clothes.. would want to fit in them.. ahahah . wait..That reminded me how Karl Lagerfeld did get skinny :S
edit – have given 5 more kilos since then .:D The problem is not putting it back anyhow
edit – gave 3 more , actually it was 5 more but i gained back 2.
i have to give 12 kilos at first and if i ever manage this and be halty still, then the next step will be 5 more.
edit – my real goal is to be slim. hedi slimane is just a mesaure. i am not struggling to wear his sytle but to be slim. it is probable that it is not going to happen. i was not able to loose weight anymore. i started exercising. it did not make any sense. my eating urge came back with sports. now i can hardly handle it. i hate eating unforbidden foods. and because they were unforbidden 4 3 years i binge on them whe i eat, i want to get rid of this eating urge. i am under stress because of school work and this worsen the situation.
