regain everything I lost when I was trapped by my ED.

i dont think this is ever something i could trully 100 % do
as in i could never be as i wasd before it happened but i think i have moved on from where i was

in the physical sense i am a healthy weight and do not diet
in the emotional sense i am body comfident and happy but my happiness is not dependent on my body confidence nor would my self image plummet with anything that tested my worth

yes, i think i have achieved this goal to the highest degree possible

Is this something i can ever say i will trully achive?
I mean, everyday concerns wich are exantuated by an ED, things everyone has- will i be able to say i have achived this when i still have those?
the fact that i conciously think about my ED, have to think about not falling into that trap- does that stop me from being able to achive this?

Talk about a start (if a slutty one)
Well it was muck up day today for 6th form

when my white dress got covered in mud and was in danger of becoming see through i decided to change into jeans and borrow my friends zip up top.

later when we were at the back of the field she complained and asked for it back (jokingly) knowing i was wearing naught but a bra beneath it
so i said “fine then!” and took it off

noone in the field noticed but it was great fun
hated my rolls but HEY!

I’m going to feel good naked again
I’m going to sort out my schooling that was ruined by my ed
I’m going to (ironicly) sort out my body (be kind to it)

I’m going to remember all the things i used to love about my body and make them worth loving again

And i’m going to eat cake
Chocolate cake

sorry, confused Eating Disorder with Education

You lose a hell of a lot more than just weight when you have an eating disorder.

The pounds were the least of what I lost.

I’m going to get it all back though.
I’m more than half way there at this point.

Just a few more tangible things to wrap my hands around.