get all As and A*s in my GCSEs

hopefully i can

So i got 9 A’s 2B’s and a C. Im pleased and relieved coz ive never felt that ill from nerves before. But im a little disapointed to be honest i kno i got really good results but i would of liked at least one A* coz looking at these results ive under achieved in everything according to my predictions. But im putting that to the back of my mind. i am happy. i got into sixth from with flying colours. =]=]=]

in exactly a week and now im starting to think about maybe modifying this goal. obviously i want the best results i can get and would (at this point in time) be dissapointed with a B, but maybe things will change once ive actually got the results. i just want to be happy with them at the very least.

Please God help me prepare for this..

get the results in 12 days i dont feel excited just pure sickening nerves i need to prepare myself for this so i dont have some embarressing emotional outburst infront of everyone

haha !

yeah so there all over now so theres nothing else i can do. i hate this. everyones so looking forwards to getting thier results, y’know they just wanna know. i dont i neva wanna know i just dont wanna be disappointed and everyone keeps saying “oh you’ll be fine your really clever” but im not. i did hardly any revision, did not take these seriously and am so kicking myself.

ive built myself up into believing i can get theese results im predicted and everyones saying but what if i dont. i mean i know ill just hav to deal with it and i know its not the end of the world but still. i just dont wanna be dissapointed.

i really want these gades more than i eva wanted anything ever before. not just for educational perposes ( altho that would be pretty damn good) but just to prove to everyone i can frikin do this. when i got my predicted grades everyone was like “omg thats impossible youll neva do thats” even my own mumm was like “well thats stupid building you up to get such unreachable and impossible grades” i was like well thanks for the faith in me guys. i mean i know im clever n that and i know ive got a great future ahead of me, but to shove this in everyones face would be so good .

okay im getting a bit carried away. but just imagine sitting in an interview wating room looking aroud at all the other people and knowing NO ONE can have higher grades than you.

but then i know its only grades adn only GCSE but still if i got anywhere near these grades, i promise ill be amazing. to everyone at everything.

im so unmotivated this would be the push i need….but what i dont get the grades….................?

im so annoyed at myself for not taking these seriously and ive only got a few days before the last of my exams. so i thought instead of sittin ghere complaining about it ill do something. it felt good that finally i had the motivation to do something productive.

so i made a revision timetable. i split every subject i have left into sections and set out how many sections a day im goin to do before the exam. everything seems ok except maths in which i will do nothing untill the day before. but thats like 12 hours – i can do some meaningful revision in that i hope. god and to think i want an A* in maths.

this has made me feel like i can actually tackle this now which is good i just wish id done this earlier.

ive already done art, spanish, maths non calc, english lit, rs philosophy and biology so its not that many ive completly ruined with my idiousy right?

so in the middle of doin the actually exams. i cnt believe myself im so annoyed i promised my self i’d revison so so so hard coz i wanted to do so much better than in the mocks. i dont care about my predicted grades (altough that would b amazing) coz they’re way to high for my kinda intelligence. but i mean i felt like i could get average grades but ive hardly been revisin its so annoying im just so worn out and tired all the time i cant be bothered to revise i just cant take it seriously.

i always sed to myself as long as i do my best ill be happy and i just dont wanna look back and wish id revised more. Well thats wot im doin already and i havent even finshed all the exams yets.

art is over, spanish is over, eng lit is over, dun maths non calc, and rs philosophy and got biology 2mo so no hope in revision there. then ive got a week till all the others so hoping hoping hoping ill have the determination to actually do something. i just wish it was like 2 months ago so i could start revisin coz i hate this feeling of regret it makes me wanna give up on the rest of the exams which is stupid i know but yh.

i well wanted my predicted grades as well i guess i just thought with that kinda cleverness i dont need to revise went to my head i think. and now ive ruined my future omg.

im dreading so much results day. i dont even want my results. ugh i wish i could do it all over..!!!

right so got the mocks results back the other day. i wasnt takin them seriously as there only mocks and didnt revise AT ALL so wasnt expecting very good grades. i got:
MATHS A

STATISTICS A

ENGLISH A

CHEMISTRY B

PHYSICS B

BIOLOGY B

FRENCH B

SPANISH C

ART C

RELIGIOUS STUDIES C

GEOGRAPHY D – which im well gutted bout, i was hoping to take for a level.

yeah but these are only my mock resutls and i still have a couple of months till my real ones. so my plan is to start revising soon and hopfully ill pull all the c’s b’s and the d up to atleast a’s…

im predicted all A*’s which was a real confidence boost but so far just been achieving B’s C’s and a few D’s. I promised myself id propa study but before i knew it it was the night before the mocks n i hadnt even looked at a revision book. ofcourse i did terribbly in them and now i really need to study for propa GCSE’s but i know i never will if i dont actually do something about it…like actually revise maybe. hah.

6 A*’s
3 A’s
1 B

:p