rambling

I have a lot of goals I know I will never be able to keep up with so I will work with them on my rambling goal…. hey this is starting to look like a run on sentence.)
Recently I read “The How Of Happiness” One of the suggestions was look for the good and write it down about once a week. In order to replace bad thoughts. I have gotten in a real rut with thinking badly of someone so I am going to try this out.
CK
1.Is friendly
2.Has a great sense of humor
3. Wants to be helpful
4.Is very driven

Well that’s all I have for that one right now. :( I will have to think of some more this week.

It looks like we get to spend some quality time together…the big layoff came Friday, but on the bright side could get a lot done around here (as long as it doesn’t take any money).
I was really looking forward to our great adventure this year. We usually go out west for about three weeks,visit the ocean,camp in the mountains, hike all over,eat out in some large cities…maybe when things get going again we can take off somewhere. I always wanted to go to Yellowstone in the winter. Hmm well i will have fun dreaming about it anyway. :)

Well the wolfs at the door. This week has been rather tense. Everyone always thinks they don’t know someone the car industry affects, our whole family is being affected by it. My Br. is now in Kansas hoping they hang onto some kind of job. My DH is in the C. parts biz and they are going to try to lower their pay this week. The company starts at 13.00 an hour. How low can they go?.... no don’t tell me. ( Thanks to everyone for the government loan,,, I know its controversial but it was appreciated by someone. It gave us a little hope).
Enough of this.
I started planting veggies in my flower garden this year. It aught to be interesting, mostly salsa stuff and my little basil patch. I’m going to mix some flowers in.
Memorial Day weekend coming up, I will have to think of something fun to do. Well enough rambling for today. :)

to Kansas to help my brother move…. hope I don’t run into any swine flu.

...today. I’ve been listening to Gemini Fm the whole day!

Lazy Friday: Your Green Christmas

I thought amigo would leave without saying goodbye but he called me in the morning and we met for lunch. I wasn’t sure if we should meet because I couldn’t bear to say goodbye again.
Lunch was quiet, I didn’t know what to say to him and he seemed to feel the same. I couldn’t say what I really felt, that I was sad and scared.
We didn’t say goodbye, we held hands and looked at each other and I think I said take care and he said that he would see me in London. But things will be different then. I hope he’ll still be my friend.
As I was leaving, I remembered the other times we had said goodbye but this time was different. I didn’t feel anything the rest of the day, I didn’t sleep till early in the morning. I know he’ll be happy. And I’ll be good too.

Silence is better than unmeaning words.

—Pythagoras

I like the sentiment if not the actual phrasing.

SuzyQ is tired of feeling sad and wants to stop crying.

I was reading my previous entry, it is good to let go but sometimes it’s important to feel. For the past few weeks I’ve been feeling very low and rather than try to fight these feelings, I can’t help thinking it’s ok to feel low. There’s nothing wrong and it’s better than pretending to be fine which results in my actual feelings manifesting themselves in other ways.
And sometimes it’s not silly.
I guess the important part is being able to remember all the things I’m grateful for and focus on them.

I like this quote a lot! Sessy posted it in one of her grat lists.

finish each day and be done with it. you have done what you could. some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. tomorrow is a new day. you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
- ralph waldo emerson

I’m consciously trying to do this everyday. Especially on the days when I’m feeling low or angry. I remind myself that I’m just being silly and let those feelings go.