always be aware of and worship my different style of thinking and creativity and use it in most awkward situations and ways

find out about ubigitious computing and fashionable technology. i have seen a book about the last one also. husseyin caglayan is an example..
and one more.. processing it is said to be a book for visual artsists who performs software based things.. well am the software part but can be inspried anyway about what can be done with software.. it also mentions audio video etc..

i have discovered i am distracted very easily.. i am getting tired of what i am doing.. not the young clever girl anymore may be.. this dieting thing also left me unable to concentrate more.. as i get older may be it is harder to control my dyslexia.. i cant not listen without going into another stream of thought. when someone is talking about somethign to me , millions of thoughts trigger. i can not speak lately.. it is getting worse or is it becaus ei am tired.. i mightbe making it all up on the other hand.. i should switch.. i can not bear to be inadequate. i should switch where my uniqueness is welcomed. i am clever as much as everyone. but more than that i have a different approach about anything.. it sometimes slows me down in daily and routine issues. but in some cases it gives me extra strength. i should switch.. but i am such a quarantee seeking girl who has not much courage to life. things can change.. they always do :D:D:and if i think i fear of sth, th possibility of i am doing it rises. because i hate fear.. and i do fear a lot..

talk with mark about olpc.. we can do it may be.. and talk with suzan too..

i sometimes think specializaton on one topic brings success. i think it is good and necessary, ignoring the fact that it is boring. success is the enthusiasm however .. sometimes..
but sometimes…

“A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.”
R. Heinlein