lose 40 pounds

So I actually did bounce this goal once a week ago. I still don’t quite understand it – I had done a hard workaround but I also had a ton of water. Oh well, I was happy to see the numbers on the scale then, despite the fact that I am still resting at about five pounds above goal now.

Another 3 lbs. So there are only 34 left. I can do that. If I keep it steady at this pace then I can do it in 6 months. I will be svelte by Christmas!

What’s wrong with me!! Its been about a year!!

And then I gained it all back because I wasn’t living in the wilderness and hiking 20 miles a day.

So here I am, 5’6.5”, 180 pounds, about to embark on a new beginning in the far far away state of Colorado, and I don’t want to go at this weight. I’m not happy with how I look. I’m also concerned about my weight inhibiting my outdoor opportunities. It hasn’t in the past, but I’ve been really self-conscious about it, because really, nobody’s ass looks good in a climbing harness, let alone one that’s a little too stuffed.

I’m starting school in January, and I think 7 months is a feasible amount of time to lose this weight in. The only thing is, I don’t know if my body can handle being at that weight. I’ve done the wrist test to see what type of body frame I have, and apparently I have a small frame. My hip bones are set close together, but I’m really curvy. Even when I weighed less, I was curvy. I’m just having difficulties visualizing what I’d look like.

I’ve been going to the gym regularly, and I’ve noticed that I’m building up a lot of muscle and endurance (I’m jogging for 5-10 minutes at a time!), but I’m not losing weight. I guess I’m just replacing fat with muscle, but I’d still like to see those scales change.

I’m in this for the long haul. I just have to continue to motivate myself to exercise and make better food choices.

Week of May 25: Curves once
I ended up taking the week of June 1 off.
Week of June 8: Curves twice

On Friday (6/12), I was weighed and measured at Curves; it’s part of their little program, even though it doesn’t matter to me what inches or even what pounds I lose or how quickly – I just know I want to be healthier and happier, and that losing weight is part of both. I weighed 303 by their scale, which is clearly some improvement. I’ll have to check on my own scale to see how that compares.

So I was hoping for more, but I am down 3 pounds over the last two weeks. I have been having way too much weekend fun and haven’t been good with my eating. No more cheating. I want to be down 7 more in the next two weeks. I am only weighing in every two weeks so that I don’t make myself crazy. Oh well, a loss is a loss ad I should be happy.

Gah… I need to do this. My love of french fries and hatred of exercise has caused me to put on 50 lbs over the past 3 years. It’s going to be a long and difficult journey. Wish me luck. <3

after losing the 32 pounds i ended up putting 14 back on but they’re leaving again now i’m happy to say but i obviously have alot of learning to do, i’ll start posting my weight again once i’ve lost the weight i gained back. i’ll get there :)

I haven’t reached my goal in the time that I wanted, but considering how stressed I’ve been with school, I’m glad I lost any at all!

I only have two pounds left and I am so excited. Almost there! Hopefully by the end of the month, with some effort.

So I gave up on this about two or three years ago like a big wimpo. And now I’m back and fatter than ever. But apparently I’m not allowed to just delete this. Oh no, I have to finish it according to the 43 things powers that be. Fine. But if I lose 40lbs I will still be a fat ass. Just not as much of one. Boo to getting this fat and boo to having to start this stupid goal over again. I suppose this means I have to start exercising again and not eating cheese. Stupid delicious cheese.