Yeah. I’m sick of never being able to finish these damn things. I start them, but the farthest I’ve ever gotten was half way through day 7, and then I binged. I really need to get through the whole ten days, at least once, just to prove that I can. I know restricting is hard for me, and that just fasting is a lot easier, but that’s all the more reason for me to actually finish the damn ten days. I really need to prove to myself that it’s possible.
Thankfully, school’s coming up, and since I’ll be there from 7am-3pm, and then at the skate park till 5-6ish, I’ll only be home from 5-6ish until whenever I go to bed, which ought to be 10-11ish. So that’s only about 5 hours I’ll be home when I can eat, and I can’t possibly eat that much in 5 hours, especially with the way I’ve been eating lately where I only eat like, twice a day, and then I barely eat anything anyways. Even though I’m pretty sure I somehow went over 400cals… whatever. I’ll do it. There’s a new fast starting at 10days_strict on the 9th, so I’m planning on joining that one. Until then, maybe I’ll do a fruits and veggies fast or something, cause I reeeally need to lose weight before school starts. I probably only lost like 5lbs all summer, even if I think I gained muscle and so therefore I look skinnier. I want that damn number to go lower, at least to 110, probably 100, and possibly lower than that. If Mickey’s 5’7 and 110ish, and he looks fine like that, then I’m not gonna look fine at 110. I’m really not. And I really need to get below that, a good deal below that.
Tangenting… Anyways, I’m definitely gonna do the challenge on the 9th. As long as I don’t try to spread it out over the day like I did last time, I think I might be able to manage it. Plus I’ll only be at my grandma’s house once a week, so there won’t be that much of an opportunity to binge like there’s been all summer.
So the new fast starts on a Friday. Odd starting day, but I’ll manage. Weekends are always harder though, meh… I’ll get through it though, cause I’ve gone 6.5 days before, and 3.5 more shouldn’t be that much harder.
Yeah I’m done typing.
