stop beating myself up for past mistakes

Dwelling on the past, and (worse) beating one’s self up for past mistakes is easier to do than than it is to forgo the past and live for the present and revel in the future. Still the effort is worth it. The trick is to keep reminding yourself of this every time those little “would a, could a, should a’s” grow from a quiet whisper to a loud clatter in your head. For some, mastering this is easier than quieting the louder critics that masquerade as family, friends, and colleagues.

can’t seem to stop doing it. keep tormenting myself over not buying real estate in ny when I could have. and also giving up my apartment there. play the lottery? maybe. probably not.

I have terrible regrets for not buying real estate when it was still relatively affordable in NYC. I procrastinated and wasn’t able to make a decision. I also wanted to buy a whole building instead of a condo or coop but that was unrealistic. now I feel shut out forever. I need to let these tormenting thoughts go and move on. they gnaw at my soul…