i never thought id see my ex, jay again. ever. i figured the day he walked out of my life, almost two years ago, would be the last time id ever see him again. damn was i wrong. he actually ended up living with me for about two and a half weeks, until finally, (AND THANK GOD!) he moved out with his brother. i always had the “what if’s?” in the back of my mind… but i just needed to see him again, and happily, he hasnt changed. you’re always going to remember the good times with your ex’s, unless the break up was recent, its easy to see them in a positive light. my advice to anyone that is reading this…. see them again, that is, if youre considering a lifetime commitment and still have those nagging “what if’s?”. in my case… it brought about the best closure i could ever dream of. hes still a good person, deep down, but now i truly remember why we broke up, and am so damn happy that we did. i swear, if there were ever a reason for me to believe in higher powers, someone up there a million times more intelligent than myself, its after this pickle.
EDIT: i just want to say that i love jay, with all my heart, i love him. of course, not in “that” way… but i will always care about him. i will never truly let him go, because he is important to me. my heart would be a little more black without his random phone calls once a month. i wish nothing but the best, and i hope sometime soon he can find someone to love him as much as i did. but for the time being…. he has a safe place in my heart, but he always will.
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(yes, that is a picture of my ex. anyone interested?)
