I think I have to when I am drinking think of all the times I have made a complete idiot of myself and funny enough it is becoming more frequent..
I just get retarded and can just blank out!! I also have to have a look at why I should cut my drinking back and all the problems that come along with it..
I think that I said far tooo much last night to the gym I liked, what I said is how I felt but he didn’t deserve me talking or treating him how I did..
I woke up this morning with a pit of regret, not knowng exactly what I did but knowing it was not right appologised and he won’t contact me back!! I can’t take back what I did, I can only move forward hoping that he will forgive me but if not I know that what I said is really the truth about how I feel etc.. so I should just except and move on
