be less negative and angry

More often than I would like to believe lately I find myself being or saying something negative or angry before I realize what I am doing. I don’t always know where the negative energy is coming from on these occasions, it just seems to be there under the surface and escapes when I am not on guard.

I am better at guarding against the behavior in public, but find myself too easily slipping into this behavior at home with family. I would really like to find a way to stop. My family deserves better. Although I know that I love them and they know it to, they do not deserve to wallow in my negativity any more than I do.

I’m constantly complaining about how I hate Orlando and walk around with a scowl on my face. I need to enjoy where I am right now until I can figure out what I’m doing exactly. It’s making me unhappy and I feel like it has an effect on my looks.