post poetry

Out of nowhere
I was standing nowhere, I had nowhere to go
I stood in the middle of nowhere
my feet could not walk my path
Go on journey to nowhere
Leave steps so some1 may follow to nowhere

What is there in the land of nowhere?
Where no1 would like to end up nowhere 1day
Someday me somewhere
Telling people I came from nowhere
Thats how I got there somewhere

Somehow nowhere is a place

Better than the place we call home
A better place than home, I have neva found
Anywhere, somewhere not even nowhere
Out of nowhere I wrote a poem
I was sitting somewhere
Hoping this poem reach 2 sum1 anywhere in the world

Those who are somewhere 2 be found
Those who are anywhere 2 be found
And those who are nowhere 2 be found

My life away from you, life took you away
But everytime I look in the mirror Father, I find you there
Your warm love I can feel in my heart
2008 a year from life you are
Gold can be replaced with gold
Diamonds for diamonds
Like a life for a life

Thats how I found you Mianca
Again you mean a world to my Luyanda
The sun will set the sun will rise
Time will come, time will go
I will never stop loving you
I will die oneday, you know what they say
All memories of liffe will go , but deep I pray
To a lord not silent nor def he can hear
He knows what I wish for its so clear

Me and you Forever
Hold on to love and never let go
I ve place you around my neck
You sit at the table of my heart
This can’t be a curse
If so then God never created love between men an women
Between me and you there is for Eternity

Most of these things never come out on paper
These things stay in my head to never come out later
Some things are better just left unsaid
Like some days it would be easier if i were just dead
Everyday i wish i could start my life
Maybe one day have 3 kids and a wife
To have that one thing i wish i always had
Come home and see both mom and dad
It sucks growing up and being taunted
Surrounded by kids that get what they ever wanted
But you never know what you have until you have lost it
My dad was the world to me i wish he knew it
He had my heart not a lot…... every bit
At age 19 i have a lot to to still learn
But to get at the front of the boat one must start at the stern
There has been two wet cheeks as i was writing this
Now all i have left to do is keep my head high and make my dreams exists

Dad i wish you could read this i love you….

sweet bird, sweet bird
where are u, faded sight I can’t see
dead yet living I can’t be
standing yet forward I walk
silent inside I talk

sweet bird, sweet bird
where are u, faded sight I can’t see
I m not giving up on life
What happens when life gives up on u
look at the things I’ve being through
Lost a friend , a father, a lover one or two
A girl, a woman guess who
sweet bird that was you

sweet bird where r you?
cristal clear sight, now i see
my death crepping up to me.

I guess everything I heard about you is true
Because you don’t feel the same way as I do for you
You and me had a good thing but you don’t have too explain
But you got to take responsibility for the pain
You always told me you were going to be here
But then I soon realize you only told me things I wanted to hear
I don’t understand why you couldn’t be honest, faithful, and true
I listened and stayed around and only got played like a fool
But enough with the grief there is something I have to do
It’s time for me to move on and let go of you
Because you only want to have my back against the ropes that’s how it seems
Because when I need you, you’re never there for me
So now it’s time to go our own separate ways
There are clouds above my sky and ill see better days
I’ll give you my trust but never give you my pride
I kicked you out of my life and never letting you back inside
You said I wasn’t shit I was only a bitch
This is final and this is it this is my last and final wish
I wish that I can keep myself away from what I just went through
Because to be honest I deserve better than you.

for some reason i dont feel like the original me
im a different person with a split personality
is it because im living my life without giving a fuck
or because im not living with somebody for me to love
or is it beacuse im not living my life right
or could it be because my heart is dark as night
or because im playing with my life by playing the wigi board
and im calling upon the satan an not the holy lord
or finally because i just can’t fucken stand life no more
somebody tell me please which one could it be
because im tired of bad shit always happening me
it feels like a nightmare that i just can’t get up from
and everybody wants to kill me and all i could think is run,run,run!!!
i fucken hate my life for what it’s worth
im trying to fix my problems but how can i when i can’t even speak a word
you could do what ever you want,you can fix anything you like,you can tell me anything you would like to say
but none of that is enough to cut off the suffering and pain
nobody wants me to make it but they want me to fall
and i can’t do nothing about it because i’m like a dead picture on the wall
anything that i do never seem’s to work
so i hope to god i don’t end up like the once iv’e hurt

baby take your time trust me i just want to talk
and i know you got a man but i just can’t let you walk
because if you walked off my life without me saying a word
i will regret it in my life because you’re the girl i deserve
because i can see us fall in love baby come and take my hand
baby girl i could be the one and i hope that you understand
that you’re the girl i have been looking for all of my life
and ill be down for you just tell me how to make you mine
a girl like you deserves the best
and don’t worry about the other girls because ill put you above the rest
you got a body of angel with a beautiful face
and your that type of girl that i just couldn’t replace
and when i tell you that ill make you happy know that it’s true
or you can stay with your man and get your heart broken too
every night i think about you so i hope you think about me
now that i told you how i feel what is it going to be?

smoking a blunt rolling a joint
doing this shit is what i enjoy
my legs are dead my body is numbed
im trying really hard to reach the tip of my tong
it free’s my spirit opens my mind
it leaves my worry’s, depresion, and problems behind
i feel like a butterfly because i am free
why do i only feel like this when i smoke on this weed
why can i feel like this all the fucking time
i could only feel like this when i get high
people think that i’m brainless and say that i’m blind
i don’t care because i do what i gotta do just to get by
if you think im stupid have a good day and good-bye
because this is not your life its all fucken mine
the power that this herb holds is so divine
but be warned you smoke it once you will try it twice
foolish person this is not a game
because when you smoke it you are not the same
but why can’t anyone let me be me
what can i say i love smoking weed

this is the last letter you will ever see
because the devil took the words and the pain from me
now i feel like this room empty and cold
all because the devil took me in and took my mothafucking soul
when i was lost,crazy,lonely,and scared
only the devil responded because god wasent there
in the bibble it says that lord jesus christ son died for us
died died died for wut
ive always sat down and prayed and he still hasent answered one
and thats the reason i dont believe in lord jesus christ son
my mother always said that my faith with god is the answer
but then i hated god because he gave my mother cancer
and now im internally bleeding
because of all the bullshit that i use to fucking believe in
god turn his back on me including everone that i know
thats when i took the chances and decided to sell my soul
and fuck everybody else im going to do this on my own
the devil finally open my eyes
he is being true to me and made me realize
that everything in the bibble is nothing but lies
how could a dead man comeback and save all of our lifes
never again will you suffer die or feel pain
sell me your soul and ill teach you my ways
now that i have your soul take these shoes and walk down this path
now your free but your soul you wont get it back
but you can wish for anything ill give you that
what do you want your friends,family,your mom,your wife or something basic
common on now choose because im getting impatient
but before you say anything choose wisely
the hell with it just fucken surprice me
and what the devil gave me was very surpricing
all because i refused too choose well
he gave me a life sentence too serve in hell
now i forgotten my morals,my ways,and what i use to beleive in
now i belong to the devil and surrounded by demonds

it seems that the only way to stop the pain
is to cut down deep into my vein
but im going to do it but not how you think
im going to go in deeper than you when you sleep
now that im here im going to start
and im going to keep cutting myself intill my heart finally stops
im cutting and cutting and shaking in fear
could it be because i know that my death is near
i started to have visions and i could’t beleive
because these type of images are one’s that you see in your sleep
i was face to face with the one from above
the devil was also their but neither of them showed loved
they confronted me telling me what am i thinking? what am i doing?
don’t you know how many people in your life you have ruin?
then i started to have a different vision
and their i was on my dead body’s position
so there i am dead laying on the floor
and my mom stood their over me screaming why? why? did you have to do this for?
then i started to have a different vision but this time i could not see anything
i don’t understand this vision am i supose to search for something
little by little i felt that i had to open my eyes
i couldn’t beleive it and i soon realize
that this is my destiny that i’m suppose to search for me
and everything i saw was only a dream