be alone for awhile

For a bunch of reasons I really needed that time alone. Now I think I’m ready to take some small steps into the outside world of socialzation. Beside I think Flirt was right. I think I am getting a reputation as a “loner”. That’s not what I really want. I just needed some time to away to recharge my emotional batteries. I’d been feeling drained for a long time.

I wanted to do this as soon as I got to Seattle but a friend suggested this would not be wise since I’d be there all alone anyway. She more suggested this would be unsafe. Maybe I’ll shorten the alone time. Maybe I’ll play it by ear.

Ater I complete my Phase 1 short term goals I will begin Phase 2. This is on the Phase Two list.

To figure stuff out, find myself etc without the opinions of you know who(s) (well I know who they are).

I’ve actually been backing out of friendships, relationships as much as possible. The one or two friends I have kept work full time so they don’t call often or expect play dates with kids.

I can’t say I’m exactly happy. But I am in much better health and in much better spirits. I’m finally sleeping through the night and my allergies are almost completely gone.

I have a lot more time on my hands. Now, I just have to figure out how to make use of it.