Be Myself Again

I’m not my self, thats for sure. It’s a long story. Hope to speak with you all about this.

I’ve been feeling like I’m watching things happen to me. I feel like a totally different person. I’ve been OBSESSED with a guy who isn’t thinking about me. I’ve been sad and depressed. I just want to feel like myself again: Happy, Christian and content

Sou eu mesma! De novo! Voltar a ser eu mesma não é, como eu acreditava, ser a mesma de antes: sim ser uma nova eu, com os mesmos princípios, alguns repensados.
Ser eu mesma novamente siginifica não ser aquela coisa que nào era eu. Aquela coisa antiética, infeliz, que não conseguia se livrar de certos fantasmas.
Melhor que ser apenas eu mesma como antes, é ser uma nova eu-mesma.
Uma eu-mesma feliz.

This is my main goal to work on now. I feel as if I am the farthest from reaching this than ever. All I know is that at one point I was completely happy with all that was me… even the worst of the worst… Now I don’t even recognize myself.

Everyday it gets easier, I’m just glad I didn’t lose myself completely and that there are people in this world who truly love me!

over the summer i said i was going to change and just not care about what people think and be my self and leave last year behind but i dont what i really want to change into i know i am i stoped cutting 14 weeks and i dont want to antother thing is what will people think i have repution but i want to leave that behind and go back in time before that very thouth crossed my mind. and what do people expet me to act like after annd how will they act. im just soo confused

Ive been thinking that maybe I never stop been me…. It was just that I never had to deal with some thing so sad in my life, but I learned now and I am more secure of my self than before, now I can handle terrible things better…. and now I am sooo happy with my life, well not everything, but with most things… and I have seen the light, I know Im doing things rigth because I am happy doing them.
:)

I dont know what heppened but I feel really good and happy!!! since I am hanging out with this guy everything is going better…. and I have been a lot with the people that I truly love and that cares about me….. and I feel secure and I dont know… confident… I know I can be who I really am, and have a good time just like before… :)
yayyyyy!!!!
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Well, since leaving my husband…I have really started to find myself. I have started making alot more art. I have made alot of new friends. I have an AMAZING new boyfriend…who is very supportive of me being me! He is really into the same spiritual ideas and has the same hobbies and interests as me, and so I am able to do the things I love without feeling like an idiot.
Being someones “girlfriend” is fun.
I also realized that I will always be MOM and thats ok. I am a sister, mother, goddess and thats a good thing!I no longer think its a bad thing that that is part of what defines me!

Im getting very very close to this “friend”... but I dont think we are friends anymore, its something more. And every time I talk to him or think of him or talk about him I feel so happy!!! maybe I think I really like this guy, he makes me feel happy and funny and real, just like I was before!!! :)