be a little more social

I’m frustrated to find that smiling has either been interpreted as ‘I’m an idiot’ or ‘I want you’

I guess non-verbal communication isn’t something this part of the country excells in.

Even my patients are used to people being rude to them…to smile and make eye-contact, or touch their shoulder and ask if they need anything is somehow interpreted as “I’m about to get lucky”

it makes me want to put my mala beads down and kick the snot out of someone.

but instead, I smile and say “I’m only doing my job…it’s what I do…_{don’t flatter yourself}“

and his wife just had a baby last month.

To celebrate, they’re having an Argentine Asado (read MOFO Barbeque like you ain’t never seen)

And, I haven’t been able to reply back that yes, or no, I will or won’t go.

Truth is I want to.
But I’m shy.
It would be really nice to speak my native tongue and hear the Castillian Dialect again (since my mom died, I haven’t)

So, what’s wrong with me?
I’m tired for one.
but…what else?