rid myself of envy

I had my first envy attack ever yesterday. It was horrible. Now I know why people call it “The Green Eyed Monster.”

I just called a friend and told her everything. It was really from me feeling like I’m not where I want to be in my life right now and feeling really frustrated…especially because I feel like I try to “do the right thing” all the time and others get rewarded when they don’t make that same effort.

Anyway, I feel like God really helped me through that little episode and will reward me in a way that I can’t even phathom.

I’m a jealous person. Maybe there’s a way to trust someone enough to relax.